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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Same  | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" IS that a joke? | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "And same here | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "Gosh, you look amazing | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" What?! Your body is amazing! Mrs | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here "Saaaaame. I take good pictures but I’m really a flabby mess in real life! | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Will never happen | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here "Same same. Cos my chubs make me think of myself very low  | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here "Wrong wrong wrong | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here
Saaaaame. I take good pictures but I’m really a flabby mess in real life!"No way,  | |||
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. T " Ps Especially when you know they made effort to see you and you don't want to let then down. I hate feeling unreliable and scared they will think I'm making shit up as excuse ! | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here
Saaaaame. I take good pictures but I’m really a flabby mess in real life!"What!? I for one prefer real women. I feel sex is more than just the physical connection, the way they make you feel is much more of a turn on | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" They would be crazy not to like you,re body, you look incredible! x | |||
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"Probably had their wank and changed minds. Mrs" Probably had their wank and wasn't a couple in the first place....  | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
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Cos my chubs make me think of myself very low "Creamy! I will show you how much I like your chubs x We have a sexercise plan to make | |||
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"Because I think - maybe they're not that interested in me, really. - my waffling bores every person I know eventually, might as well cut to the chase. - maybe physically I'm not that desirable. (These doubts tend to be around my time of the month, the rest of the time I'm trying to adopt a more ah fuck it approach)" If it's of any help, know that women are far more critical of themselves than men because we have more self-awareness, which can be a good or bad thing depending on how far we take it. Also, men tend to find confidence a far more attractive attribute than body shape, so don't worry about your body, just go out there and have fun. Any guy would be damn lucky to meet you. Mrs x | |||
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"Anxious my penis will be too big for them, they might ch#ke and die , now how am I supposed to explain that to police and paramedics "
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Well that's an unfounded worry, just checked your pics..and I conclude theres no chance of anyone thinking that.  | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "Seriously, you two?! I mean, I know I’m biased but come on | |||
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"Seriously, you two?! I mean, I know I’m biased but come on "I know, right? Midnight and Red are just proving that *everybody* has self-confidence issues. Even stone-cold hotties. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "What?! Let me tell you. You should never feel nervous! | |||
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"Seriously, you two?! I mean, I know I’m biased but come on
I know, right? Midnight and Red are just proving that *everybody* has self-confidence issues. Even stone-cold hotties.
"Quite so, old thing. Hard to fathom, isn’t it. Just shows we’re all human and have vulnerabilities. Makes me feel 1% better haha | |||
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"Because I am really shit in bed." But awesome in a bar. 
Seriously, I don’t believe there’s such a thing as being ‘good’ or ‘shit’ in bed. It’s just about the moment and whether two (or more!) people are compatible. If you fit together. If you’re right for each other.
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"Nerves. " I said this in another thread recently, but I enjoy the nerves. The anticipation and the butterflies. I think it’s part and parcel of meeting someone new. It’d be weird to *not* be nervous. | |||
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*can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa* | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Then that negative narrative breeds, building up a load of bull in my head.... | |||
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"Honestly I have watched too many true crime docs..." And this! | |||
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"Honestly I have watched too many true crime docs... And this!" Mad noone had mentioned this, there is an element of danger the first time, even as a single guy you are worried. I have definitely had guys trying to catfish me saying they are single females or couples on here. | |||
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"Because I think I won't be good enough x" If for any reason someone thinks you are not good enough for them, it’s actually them who isn’t good enough for you. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" really | |||
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"I get worried that I’m not physically attractive enough and that when we meet they will not like me anymore. Or I look forward to a meet that I have eventually agreed to as I don’t agree to them all that often, and it’s all arranged and then they just disappear on me. The thrill of the chase is over and that just makes me even more insecure. It’s happening a lot, so it must be me "You fucking are! Would quite happily prove that being so local | |||
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"I mostly talk myself out of meeting because I just wasn't *feeling* it. That and I'm a shit-Shag nowadays *can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa*"I'm sure a pelvic sorcerer isn't a shit shag... | |||
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"Honestly I have watched too many true crime docs... And this! Mad noone had mentioned this, there is an element of danger the first time, even as a single guy you are worried. I have definitely had guys trying to catfish me saying they are single females or couples on here. " Absolutely, there's as much danger for men as anyone. Even moreso in certain situations I'd say | |||
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"I mostly talk myself out of meeting because I just wasn't *feeling* it. That and I'm a shit-Shag nowadays *can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa*
I'm sure a pelvic sorcerer isn't a shit shag..."Need get my spells back on | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t? "Hugs unfortunately. There will be many disappointments and rejections on Fab just like in real life. It's only through intensive therapy that I realized why people behave like this. It's usually their own fears, insecurities, trauma, triggers, anxieties and often nothing to do with you in particular. You probably are not the first or the last person that they have run away from with no explanation, romantic, sexual, platonic,familial, etc. Trust me I know I come from a family of runaways. I myself am runaway in recovery. I make no promises that a relapse won't happen but I try my hardest to explain to people why I am this way and why I have chosen to end the interaction. It doesn't always come out right and it does evoke tears and anger from the other person. However, I want to live the rest of my life with some integrity and with that comes the acknowledgment that I have to reject people for my own good and their own good and I have to explain to them why. It's not you OP it's them and their minimal capability of communicating something difficult and unpleasant. | |||
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"Probably had their wank and changed minds. Mrs" Lol there's that..... the whole fantasy but if you step into reality the fantasy has to end. You have to meet a fallible human being that does unsexy things like a fart. Lol! | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Hugs I get anxious that my brain and their brain will terrorise/traumatise each other! | |||
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"Suffer from bad anxiety, so get worked up that my body isn't good enough " But you are lovely x | |||
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"Because I usually have crisis of confidence in my looks. " Hugs. Well they've seen my face.... As for my body....going to the nudist clubs helped. because no-one ran away screaming when I took my kit off and my brain didn't do the same. My brain likes to fuck me up. lol! I know some people have a body type that they prefer/like but I'm not like that and it is nice to meet people who don't have a body type also or who prefer my body type. And at the nudist club you see all types of bodies so it becomes more comfortable. I have to do some body/somatic therapy because my trauma has caused me to disconnect frequently from my body so I have to constantly bring that awareness back. | |||
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"Suffer from bad anxiety, so get worked up that my body isn't good enough But you are lovely x" Well not in my own eyes | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body IS that a joke? " Everyone has body insecurities. I keep it mostly at bay with therapy and nudist trips. | |||
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"Because I think - maybe they're not that interested in me, really. - my waffling bores every person I know eventually, might as well cut to the chase. - maybe physically I'm not that desirable. (These doubts tend to be around my time of the month, the rest of the time I'm trying to adopt a more ah fuck it approach)" Hugs. I have those thoughts from time to time but therapy and therapeutic maintenance squash the doubts most of the time. Thank God. it must working because I'm having period sex and not freaked out about it. | |||
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"That I will be a crushing disappointment and I'll see it written all over his face." Na ah. Just nope | |||
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"Because in the flask they might think no chance you big nosed bastard. " Hugs...I have a tiny flat nose...my glasses/sunglasses/ masks...basically anything made to sit on the nose just slips off...I'd never let a bloody surgeon touch it!! My ears are no better. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here
Saaaaame. I take good pictures but I’m really a flabby mess in real life!"Hugs. | |||
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"They might want to keep me because I'm amazing, obviously "One of my fears is that they become infatuated with me and cause a mental health catastrophe...oh wait that's catastrophizing so..... | |||
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"That I will be a crushing disappointment and I'll see it written all over his face." Never  | |||
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"Because I am really shit in bed." Hugs.. It's a sexual journey...no one is born knowing how to do any of this...we all have to learn and practice. I suffered from low libido and I was terrified that I would just freeze in bed. so I had to go back to the drawing board...and retrace my steps regarding my views on sexuality, sensuality, and intimacy. It's still a struggle because my brain likes to disconnect from my body and from other people. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
And same here
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Cos my chubs make me think of myself very low "Hugs...my chubs are my safety blanket. I felt more insecure when I was thin...probably too thin. | |||
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. T " I think OP means without explanation and the famous ghosting. Ugh TFL made me miss a first meet last week. Thankfully neither of us gave up and we tried again this week and had a fantastic time! But even little uncontrollable things like that can cause people to ghost. | |||
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"Because I think - maybe they're not that interested in me, really. - my waffling bores every person I know eventually, might as well cut to the chase. - maybe physically I'm not that desirable. (These doubts tend to be around my time of the month, the rest of the time I'm trying to adopt a more ah fuck it approach) If it's of any help, know that women are far more critical of themselves than men because we have more self-awareness, which can be a good or bad thing depending on how far we take it. Also, men tend to find confidence a far more attractive attribute than body shape, so don't worry about your body, just go out there and have fun. Any guy would be damn lucky to meet you. Mrs x" Sounds like a good plan! | |||
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"Because I am really shit in bed. But awesome in a bar.
Seriously, I don’t believe there’s such a thing as being ‘good’ or ‘shit’ in bed. It’s just about the moment and whether two (or more!) people are compatible. If you fit together. If you’re right for each other.
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Nerves.
I said this in another thread recently, but I enjoy the nerves. The anticipation and the butterflies. I think it’s part and parcel of meeting someone new. It’d be weird to *not* be nervous."You’re absolutely right and I’m glad to hear that from you at this time and circumstances. I’ve learned by saying that it’s really my trauma response speaking as I was made to believe that. Bring on Fab is a part of my healing journey and it works. | |||
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"Anxious my penis will be too big for them, they might ch#ke and die , now how am I supposed to explain that to police and paramedics "mate only put the tip in. 
Well that's how I approach strap-ons and anal toys with men. lol! Penetration anxiety is a real thing. Male or female.
Relieved to know that I'm unlikely to kill most men with my vagina but I'm scared of the hearts of the men over 60. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "You are stunning and that smile that would make anybody be relaxed around you | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Same as this, I can’t hide my flabby bits in the flesh | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same as this, I can’t hide my flabby bits in the flesh "No need to hide I saw the shower pic | |||
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"Being on Fab is a part of my healing journey and it works."  | |||
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"I mostly talk myself out of meeting because I just wasn't *feeling* it. That and I'm a shit-Shag nowadays *can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa*"Sounds like my masturbation diary. Lol! I can't be arsed. Luckily with people, I can be arsed so it balances out. | |||
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"Probably had their wank and changed minds. Mrs" Done this a few times haha | |||
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"...because I'm mad as a box of frigs and they're about to find out
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. T I think OP means without explanation and the famous ghosting. Ugh TFL made me miss a first meet last week. Thankfully neither of us gave up and we tried again this week and had a fantastic time! But even little uncontrollable things like that can cause people to ghost." Did they? Oops
There's always a reschedule but not easy if they live zillions miles away!
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. T Ps Especially when you know they made effort to see you and you don't want to let then down. I hate feeling unreliable and scared they will think I'm making shit up as excuse !" Unfortunately I have to let people down because I'm neurodivergent and any shit could go down without warning. I do let people know this up front. Oddly on the other side, I try my hardest not to let people down. Mostly if I can keep myself balanced I can keep up with my meets. I always have to remember not to overload myself. I have to do a lot of pacing with spoons. | |||
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"I worry that I’m not as chiselled as a lot of guys here. And yes a fear of disappointment. " good thing I'm not a block of wood, so I'm not looking for a chisel.
These days I have lowered expectations. I'm a very complex woman and can run circles ( circus rings) around most people if I'm not careful. I can subconsciously ask too much of people but it's because my default is to ask too much of myself and then carsh and burn out.
Understanding the human condition, others, and my own condition helped reduce my disappointment and fear of disappointment.
There's more curiousity now and just a want to make a small connection.
It's more who are you and do we have something in common rather than....are you my soul mate and are we going to fulfill all each others desires? | |||
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. I hate feeling unreliable and scared they will think I'm making shit up as excuse !" See, this is totally valid as well. Nerves can come from external factors as well as internal ones. I think the best any of us can do to mitigate this is remember to communicate. Talk to each other. And it goes both ways - we have to trust each other as well. | |||
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"Honestly I have watched too many true crime docs..." lol! I watch them but I look for the commonalities in ending up a victim. Yeah I'm not the ideal victim lol! and I have zero intention of making it easy anymore to be a victim. I recommend reading the book: Surrounded by psychopaths:: or, How to Stop Being Exploited by Others by Thomas Erikson. | |||
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"Because I think I won't be good enough x" Hugs, everyone is good enough just not good at everything and that's ok. Anyone who expects you to be good at everything is not based in reality and that could be a danger to your personal well-being. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Then that negative narrative breeds, building up a load of bull in my head...." Yeah I um...avoid the negative narrative as much as possible...with one what one of my peers defines as "wholesome activities" Lol! I dunno if swinging is a wholesome activity but I'm too busy meeting and chatting to people in the clubs and socials to pay attention to the negative narrative that my brain likes to give me. | |||
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"Honestly I have watched too many true crime docs... And this! Mad noone had mentioned this, there is an element of danger the first time, even as a single guy you are worried. I have definitely had guys trying to catfish me saying they are single females or couples on here. " Please be safe. Always meet publicly for the first time and trust your gut if it feels off. Some gangs use women to lure men and then rob and attack the male victims. You can read about personal safety via the Suzy Lamplugh Trust. This is not just for women but also for men and the LGBTQIA community. https://www.suzylamplugh.org/pages/category/personal-safety-advice | |||
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"Because I think I won't be good enough x If for any reason someone thinks you are not good enough for them, it’s actually them who isn’t good enough for you." Agree. | |||
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"Because I think - maybe they're not that interested in me, really. - my waffling bores every person I know eventually, might as well cut to the chase. - maybe physically I'm not that desirable. (These doubts tend to be around my time of the month, the rest of the time I'm trying to adopt a more ah fuck it approach) If it's of any help, know that women are far more critical of themselves than men because we have more self-awareness, which can be a good or bad thing depending on how far we take it. Also, men tend to find confidence a far more attractive attribute than body shape, so don't worry about your body, just go out there and have fun. Any guy would be damn lucky to meet you. Mrs x" Sometimes a stranger's kindness can really make someone smile. Thank you, x | |||
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"I get worried that I’m not physically attractive enough and that when we meet they will not like me anymore. Or I look forward to a meet that I have eventually agreed to as I don’t agree to them all that often, and it’s all arranged and then they just disappear on me. The thrill of the chase is over and that just makes me even more insecure. It’s happening a lot, so it must be me "Trust me it's not you. about 50 percent of the men on Fab are toxic. about 25 % will not have a personality compatible with yours. 10 % have a lifestyle not compatible with yours. 10 % won't be psychologically sound. So that leaves 5 % to try to meet up with. You are bound to meet some duds and it's even harder for men. The clubs/social events are easier for me because I just treat it as a one-time thing. It's not you. It's what happens in middle and old age. As teens and in our twenties we had less restrictions and less responsibilities and probably less awareness and probably more forgiving.
hugs. Still feel shit though to be left out/rejected/abandoned/overlooked/neglected/disregarded/unconsidered.
Unfortunately, humans will do this to use more than we would like. I almost expect it now. I radically accept it because I can't control people...only my reaction. | |||
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"I get worried that I’m not physically attractive enough and that when we meet they will not like me anymore. Or I look forward to a meet that I have eventually agreed to as I don’t agree to them all that often, and it’s all arranged and then they just disappear on me. The thrill of the chase is over and that just makes me even more insecure. It’s happening a lot, so it must be me
You fucking are! Would quite happily prove that being so local "Do it! the two of you meet!! I need some compersion.  | |||
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"I mostly talk myself out of meeting because I just wasn't *feeling* it. That and I'm a shit-Shag nowadays *can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa*
I'm sure a pelvic sorcerer isn't a shit shag..."Facts. | |||
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"I mostly talk myself out of meeting because I just wasn't *feeling* it. That and I'm a shit-Shag nowadays *can't be arsed* *would rather have a cuppa*
I'm sure a pelvic sorcerer isn't a shit shag...
Need get my spells back on " | |||
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"I just don't get anxious or nervous, it is what it is, sometimes a meet takes place other times it doesn't, i turn up with the attitude they like me or they don't either way its been a pleasure meeting them "I aim for this and plan A, B, C D, E, F and G. What?! I need a lot of contingencies for my Neurodivergent brain. It freaking gave me a random panic/anxiety attack when I was going on a tropical holiday. I wasn't even in the airport or in the plane. My brain loves to sabotage me and those around me. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "Yes same here x | |||
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"Suffer from bad anxiety, so get worked up that my body isn't good enough But you are lovely x Well not in my own eyes " Hugs....there's psychological work to be done there on your eyes....appointment at specsavers?
I myself frequent Specsavers and the psychotherapist and the physical therapist. I dunno if they are stopping me from falling apart or putting me back together....could be both. lol! | |||
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"Suffer from bad anxiety, so get worked up that my body isn't good enough But you are lovely x Well not in my own eyes Hugs....there's psychological work to be done there on your eyes....appointment at specsavers?
I myself frequent Specsavers and the psychotherapist and the physical therapist. I dunno if they are stopping me from falling apart or putting me back together....could be both. lol! "you look good to me x | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
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"Nervous after all the build up i cum too quickly. It has happened.and I felt like a fool " hugs. that's not a fool. that's a natural response to your body being so tense. Could be worse. My body got so tense I threw up in the Uber ride and missed my plane. I was going on holiday...smh.... At least you didn't throw up on your sex partner...in front of other people. It hasn't happened to me but I wouldn't put it past my brain's and body's ongoing sabotage conspiracy against me. so...now I'm learning to release the tension so the sex is less...um...frenzied?... frenetic? More...sensual...more tantric...more relaxed... Deep breathing helps. I notice a lot of men hold their breath. Yeah don't do that. I'm not saying to go full Yogi/Zen master...I don't do that...i meditation does nothing for me. Mindfulness, deep breathing and pelvic swing works for me. I tried it with a meet partner who was tense and it worked. | |||
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"That I will be a crushing disappointment and I'll see it written all over his face." I miss facial cues so...I guess my brain saves me from this? lol! I'ma a mess. lol! | |||
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"That'll they make it all about them I'll make it all about me....I talk a lot!! As if you couldn't tell. "Didn't notice that one bit, I saw you type a lot.....lol | |||
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"I get worried I’m too skinny even worse with all the muscle men on here I’m a lanky lampost" I remember feeling unsexy when I was thin....hugs...Now I'm fat I feel sexier but it's also like my security blanket....more psychological work for me to do there because I have to lose the weight as told by my physical therapist....ugh...worried I'll swing the other way again and undereat. | |||
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"Because I am really shit in bed. But awesome in a bar.
Seriously, I don’t believe there’s such a thing as being ‘good’ or ‘shit’ in bed. It’s just about the moment and whether two (or more!) people are compatible. If you fit together. If you’re right for each other.
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I said this in another thread recently, but I enjoy the nerves. The anticipation and the butterflies. I think it’s part and parcel of meeting someone new. It’d be weird to *not* be nervous.
You’re absolutely right and I’m glad to hear that from you at this time and circumstances.
I’ve learned by saying that it’s really my trauma response speaking as I was made to believe that. Bring on Fab is a part of my healing journey and it works."My trauma response wants to disconnect me completely so I don't feel anything not nerves not calm just nothingness. At least I know that isn't good so have to work to counter it. | |||
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"I make plans and then back out because I photoshop my body and I am a real life virgin I want to stay this way forever I lie about everything I will steal your wife and your purse if I have an opportunity to do so please do not even go here "Still would. | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same as this, I can’t hide my flabby bits in the flesh "No one can hide their flabby bits and most people have flabby bits. I want to get used to nudity instead of pretending that my body and other people's bodies don't exist. That's me trauma disconnecting. Swinging is a bit like exposure therapy for me. Other humans are at their most vulnerable and most raw unadulterated self so I can learn to be that way. Instead of my usual uptight self. Lol! | |||
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"Because I know I look so much better in my pics than in person and they will just be disappointed at how fat I am" I just take terrible photos. Lol! Then they are shocked in person...reverse psychology...lol! | |||
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"...because I'm mad as a box of frigs and they're about to find out
Cherry x "I already told them I'm crazy in my profile so...buyer beware. Lol! | |||
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"...because I'm mad as a box of frigs and they're about to find out
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. T I think OP means without explanation and the famous ghosting. Ugh TFL made me miss a first meet last week. Thankfully neither of us gave up and we tried again this week and had a fantastic time! But even little uncontrollable things like that can cause people to ghost. Did they? Oops
There's always a reschedule but not easy if they live zillions miles away!
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" This. I am amazed you would say that though, Midnight xx | |||
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"Out of my control circumstances will prevent it such as childcare issues, transport problems, illness etc. Things which I cannot do much about/fix last minute. I hate feeling unreliable and scared they will think I'm making shit up as excuse ! See, this is totally valid as well. Nerves can come from external factors as well as internal ones. I think the best any of us can do to mitigate this is remember to communicate. Talk to each other. And it goes both ways - we have to trust each other as well. "Sound like a plan. A good one. | |||
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"Have never bottled a meet, but I always get really nervous before hand. Thinking what if I actually know them when I turn up (I know this doesn't really matter) / am I going to live up to their expectations / are they genuine... My last meet they kept me waiting outside in my car for 30 mins, that was very nearly a bottled meet! "They were probably bottling it too! I know I have! I get so bloody anxious it takes me longer to get ready...all the while cursing my neurodivergent brain for doing this to me... You ever tried to put on eyeliner and mascara with a shaky hand? Never mind goddamn bras and suspenders and garters.... I'm trying to get sexy and my brain is like "nah....I'm not gona work..stay home under your weighted blanket...sabotage sabotage" this doesn't only happen with romantic and sexual situations..it happens going on holiday and just simply going to work....it is annoying and people think I don't care...problem is I care so much it makes my brain stop working. Even bloody prince Harry was late to meet Megan Markle and turned up all sweaty and red-faced. At least I know it's not just me. | |||
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"Although I've never let anyone down it would be anxiety about travelling that would make me change my mind. I sound like a complete flake, but public transport and not knowing the area I'm going to stresses me out." Mate I'm right there with you..TFL is a nightmare. But NeuroD brain here also get stressed out about cycling....I'm right now procrastinating on Fab because I go to go from my comfy house down to Covent garden to sort out the Brompton.....ugh....and I won't get her back for a week probably....which means I have to take the bus to work...so a 10 minute calm journey now becomes a screaming baby, swearing passenger, bus driver argument of a nightmare of 30 minutes. One time I ended up getting to work and bursting into tears. Fuck!
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"Suffer from bad anxiety, so get worked up that my body isn't good enough But you are lovely x Well not in my own eyes Hugs....there's psychological work to be done there on your eyes....appointment at specsavers?
I myself frequent Specsavers and the psychotherapist and the physical therapist. I dunno if they are stopping me from falling apart or putting me back together....could be both. lol! you look good to me x"It's all internal damage. Lol! | |||
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"We have never cancelled and wouldn't unless it's an emergency, illness or anything to do with our daughter. Miss S x " Tfl forced me to cancel last week. Closed three train lines thereby flooding the streets with traffic near the only bridge in the area: Putney bridge. The only way through was by bicycle or motorbike and I don't usually take either to meets! There was a lot of swearing in my head. London Twitter went on a rant rampage. I just went back home and got in the tube and watched Vikings. | |||
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"I make plans and then back out because I photoshop my body and I am a real life virgin I want to stay this way forever I lie about everything I will steal your wife and your purse if I have an opportunity to do so please do not even go here
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"Because the last time i disappointed the guy with how I look. " Are you sure it wasn't the bottle of Kraken you consumed? | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same
Yes same here x"I think you're pretty safe on that one... | |||
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"Scared when the trains are on strike, buses shit me up
I prefer buses, because there's not much time between stops and they don't stop in dark tunnels. "Given my brain I avoid driving in London. Everyone is safe with me not driving in London. I drive on holiday when I'm more relaxed, not in a hurry and not stuck in traffic. So train, bus and bicyle it is for me. I wear my hidden disability badge and have music most of the time on public transport. The badge is in case I have a panic/anxiety/dissociation/fainting/vomiting episode and on the bike I can just stop and go sit on a park bench. The tunnels and bridges seem to have a limited effect on me... I get car sick, bus/coach sick and plane sick so take travel sickness tablets. That's just the travel. The thought of letting a meet into my home fills me with dread and someone who was traumatized in their home twice! | |||
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"That'll they make it all about them I'll make it all about me....I talk a lot!! As if you couldn't tell.
Didn't notice that one bit, I saw you type a lot.....lol "My brain is a constant stream. difficult to turn it bloody off. | |||
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"Because I know I look so much better in my pics than in person and they will just be disappointed at how fat I am" So post more honest pics and you might be pleasantly surprised how many like exactly how you are..just a thought. | |||
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"Because the last time i disappointed the guy with how I look. " What?! How? Ok how did you know that YOU disappointed him? Side note I tell them how big I am with my measurements in inches in profile but I'm a bit more body confident as I'm fairly active so I know my body is good enough and works most of the time. Plus I can probably do 100 squats and he can't lol! Cause men are stiff. lol! | |||
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"Anxious my penis will be too big for them, they might ch#ke and die , now how am I supposed to explain that to police and paramedics "Haha one of the best responses | |||
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"Because the last time i disappointed the guy with how I look. Are you sure it wasn't the bottle of Kraken you consumed?" Yum Kraken....sorry easily distracted. | |||
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"That I will be a crushing disappointment and I'll see it written all over his face." I just take my glasses off, can't see their face then, it's just a blur | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body IS that a joke? " I know there have been loads of shocked responses to this.. So here is my process They are so many gorgeous women on this site... younger, older, same age but prettier, sexier, cuter, funnier, kinkier, less uptight, more relaxed, bigger boobs, more flexible, more adventurous, more willing, more sub, more wobbly, less wobbly.. The list is endless Of course we (I) know 'he' wants to be with us (me) , but we (i) still have doubts and insecurities to overcome ... The biggest competition is not other people, but our own torturous minds | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t? "I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t? "I didn’t | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens "That’s a lot of meets for a week!! | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" Trust.me thT is highly unlikely | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body IS that a joke? I know there have been loads of shocked responses to this.. So here is my process They are so many gorgeous women on this site... younger, older, same age but prettier, sexier, cuter, funnier, kinkier, less uptight, more relaxed, bigger boobs, more flexible, more adventurous, more willing, more sub, more wobbly, less wobbly.. The list is endless Of course we (I) know 'he' wants to be with us (me) , but we (i) still have doubts and insecurities to overcome ... The biggest competition is not other people, but our own torturous minds " This is so true! I go throught self doubt about liking my body, so then I struggle to understand what a man would see in me. I don't mean just a quick fuck either, because thats not my M.O. | |||
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"Because I think - maybe they're not that interested in me, really. - my waffling bores every person I know eventually, might as well cut to the chase. - maybe physically I'm not that desirable. (These doubts tend to be around my time of the month, the rest of the time I'm trying to adopt a more ah fuck it approach)" Please waffle away, I could never tire of hearing you lovely tones in my ears, and that lovely smile is always a pleasure to see on any forum thread when you pop in
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body Same "You look sensational xx | |||
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"I get anxious that they might not like my body" if the rest of you is as sexy as your bottom they will love you,, shame for some reason i cannot read your profile,, | |||
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"Because I am really shit in bed." Me too, shall we practice together | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!"Well, it’s not if they didn’t happen… which they didn’t | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!
Well, it’s not if they didn’t happen… which they didn’t " This is an affront to all things holy! How dare they let such a beautiful bottom down!
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!
Well, it’s not if they didn’t happen… which they didn’t
This is an affront to all things holy! How dare they let such a beautiful bottom down!
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!
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This is an affront to all things holy! How dare they let such a beautiful bottom down!
12 months of training, and the cocks didn’t turn up to fight!
They are really making me fight for their cocks"Who will win what’s the different attributes | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!
Well, it’s not if they didn’t happen… which they didn’t
This is an affront to all things holy! How dare they let such a beautiful bottom down!
12 months of training, and the cocks didn’t turn up to fight!
They are really making me fight for their cocks"Making you work up a sweat before it! Modern day gentlemen | |||
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"Why say you’ll meet and don’t?
I’ve been let down 3 or 4 times this week, it happens
That’s a lot of meets for a week!!
Well, it’s not if they didn’t happen… which they didn’t
This is an affront to all things holy! How dare they let such a beautiful bottom down!
12 months of training, and the cocks didn’t turn up to fight!
They are really making me fight for their cocks
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