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By *harpDressed Man OP Man
over a year ago
Here occasionally, but mostly somewhere else |
After a long time lurking on here and living vicariously, a change in circumstances enabled me to dip my toe in these waters....and I've loved it. All of you have been such welcoming and entertaining company that even after a couple of months I don't know how I'm going to do without it.
But I'm going to have to try.
I've had a lot of time to think recently, especially Sunday where I felt like a complete third wheel (my own fault for being a complete wet blanket in the preceding weeks) and out of my depth amongst the confidence surrounding me, and after some subsequent discussions am going to give my marriage another go. I realise this makes me an utter hypocrite, and I apologise to any of you that feel deceived - this was NEVER the intention; I have always been if anything too honest about my situation, perhaps.
And sexually this is a very bad idea, but there is more to life than that. If I thought for one second she'd be up for it I'd introduce you all, but it's not to be.
If I had the self control I'd delete the profile, but I hope to occasionally come and visit to see what kitty's new name is, and whether Messrs Rooney & 2bonks have stopped sniping, and whether Granny ever gets an avatar...
I could name literally dozens of you by name and be terribly self-serving, but better to thank you all, as a clique, sorry group, for welcoming me and helping me rebuild some of my confidence. I'd always thought that my personality that would enable me to get on with people - now I know that I have something physical to offer, too.
You're mad, you're frustrating, you're slow to reply, you're quick to delete, you're contrary, you're indecisive and you're fucking high maintenance. And may it never change!
Some of you have my contact details. They were given because I trusted you. That hasn't changed - I still trust you. If you want to keep in contact that would be great, but stick it all through the vanilla filter first, eh?
If you're one of the majority of forumites who read but don't post, this is for you:
However clique-y they may seem, it's because they have shared experiences to draw on. If you're happy to read only, great, but please, from the bottom of my bottom, don't feel intimidated out of joining in.
See you all in a couple of days when my non-posting willpower snaps!
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Mr Hot Date told me off for having such a business card! So I don't believe it would be a good idea to send it to you! 
D x 
trust you 
just go with what your heart desires. swinging is all about doing what you want and when you want to.
good luck hun with whatever direction you take in lifexxxxxxxxxx
