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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Due to my changed circumstances I have stopped all one to one meets... Now in the past I have had loads of group plays.. and its the one thing that normally has me buzzing for days.
However last two while I have had a good time.. I have walked out feeling a bit flat.. no buzzing...
Now I do know partly this is because I no longer come back and share it with my Master.. and its not that I havent orgasmed as I have... but I just feel really unsatisfied and empty after.
Has anyone else had this... I was wondering if it could be that after I would normally come back and get my satisfaction with my former Master... and the after was as much the thrill for me as the play.
I am trying one last session soon... but have decided that if I dont get a buzz then I will give up..
I mean I have never been satisfied after meets but this is something different.
any ideas.. |
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By *iewMan
over a year ago
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it may be too soon after such a huge change in your life, you always struck me as someone who enjoyed the fun for you and Master, he not being there is bound to leave a huge gap.....
give it time x |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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I to be fair feel better for getting back to it.. but I think your right. it just feels like there is something huge missing..
I never realised till now how much of my pleasure was gained from telling him after... from the sharing bit.. 
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By *iewMan
over a year ago
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"I to be fair feel better for getting back to it.. but I think your right. it just feels like there is something huge missing..
I never realised till now how much of my pleasure was gained from telling him after... from the sharing bit..
Cali"
you always stressed the enjoyment you gave to him when you played back your meets, let him listen from a distance etc etc
it is bound to take time
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Maybe I am expecting to much of myself..
I am hoping that taking some photos again will help as last few times I havent... and I am going to write it up as a blog entry for my site... and while not exactly the same.. its still sharing.
Cali |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"Might i suggest you experiment and try new sexual things out at your next group meeting ....  "
I know what I like and actually now I leave the bits out I did to please my former master. I can make it super impersonal now. where as before I would include intimacy but it was so faked on my part. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Due to my changed circumstances I have stopped all one to one meets... Now in the past I have had loads of group plays.. and its the one thing that normally has me buzzing for days.
However last two while I have had a good time.. I have walked out feeling a bit flat.. no buzzing...
Now I do know partly this is because I no longer come back and share it with my Master.. and its not that I havent orgasmed as I have... but I just feel really unsatisfied and empty after.
Has anyone else had this... I was wondering if it could be that after I would normally come back and get my satisfaction with my former Master... and the after was as much the thrill for me as the play.
I am trying one last session soon... but have decided that if I dont get a buzz then I will give up..
I mean I have never been satisfied after meets but this is something different.
any ideas.."
Cali, I don't think this is 'partly' because you don't come back and share it with Master any more - I think it is EVERYTHING to do with it. Don't know too much about your former relationship, or how long it lasted, but my guess is that you are going through a form of grieving: That is to say, grieving the loss of the relationship you thought you were going to continue to have with Master. Your raison d'etre for the 1-2-1 meets wasn't the meets themselves - it was the reward you got from Master by whether he showed his approval or otherwise when you told him all the details, and then the extra reward you got from him too. And those two parts have gone...
It sounds to me like you are going through a very natural grieving process and, like other things, it will pass...
Whether you want to put a halt to the 1-2-1's for now is your decision, and may well be a wise one so you can separate the reasons for doing them from your former relationship.
And we're all here for to bounce things off in the meantime... ain't we..
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By (user no longer on site)
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Cali
You have struck me as one of the most honest and genuine people on here .
From what you are saying it seems the buzz has gone as you don't have anyone you care about to share it with .
So try something different - or find another soulmate ?
The buzz does go , as so many of us realise - and a change is often as good as a rest !!!
Whatever happens - keep smiling and good luck ! |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"Just a point. Sex is for you, not anyone else"
Depends on what you want.. Sex most definitely wasnt just about me.. in fact.. My whole life was to please my Master.. luckily for me... My pleasure was his pleasure.
I have had a lot of things on here and in private... and it has made a lot of sense..See my problem is doing the day job I do.. that I tend to over think things.. This is why I ask things at times..
all my previous relationships have really been for the sake of it.. this is the first time I have been in love.. so its like losing that all..
I guess I need to accept that it will take time to feel right.. or maybe I will have to accept that as I wont have another Master... that that side of me I need to say goodbye too..
we will see..
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