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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Break Me! Lose Control Together! Feel Free! The Journey!
He said he wants to break me over and over...
My response told him, 'i want the same, so that i may give myself to him over & over ...uninhibited!!!'.
I was asked two questions by him after that, to which both had me deep in thought - for the answers that only come from feeling him break me before!
'What do you understand by it?'
'How do u imagine it?'
He said 'wow',like it was a little realisation maybe ...of how it feels to lose control while still being in control or controlled. Said he 'wanted to understand it more'.
So i opened up my heart and searched it, and i told him...
'I understand from a time not so long ago, when you broke me in Norwich, that it definately seemed to bring about a new in me, it had me feel weak, but at the same time empowered by the energy between us during yr breaking of me. My want for you to continue to spank me hard, and a need to feel you fuck me(though we dont), for you to be all over me at the very time i broke.
I became somewhat feral, wild, that fight or flight feeling was there, but it was you, your control of me and all i felt that kept me from flight,
as well as feeling content, sad, happy, relieved, a release as i felt sated mentally as well as physically & emotionally, while feeling like i was also in a protected bubble of euphoric bliss (cloud 9) ... feeling safe & secure with you as well as desired, loved, wanted & needed by you.
On another recent occassion when during and after you broke me to tears via our connection when we chat, i immediately became more horny and wanted, needed & desired you all over me in the same ways as above.
He says; 'Mmmm exactly as I feel it no holds bared, feral wild grrrr'.
I told him; 'I dont imagine it. As it will happen naturally when it does again, through and because of us both and a place we are at in heart, mind, body & spirit together.
The reason i dont or cant imagine it... I think is because i dont want any thoughts i may have about it and a possible process, to hinder it within me in any way.
The reason is, so that when you bring it about in me its all so encompassing of me and, i dont have time to think of anything but 'us' together, you and me in the moment, just as before.
Though that said, im no fool to think that every time you break me it will be the same, because its likely it wont, but i dont ever want to second guess such feelings and 'imagining it' will, have me second guess my feelings at the time of something so purely felt within me.
So i dont imagine it as such, i just know it will be raw and overwhelming, intensely felt from within my core and throughout my body when it happens again!'.
It's a fantastic feeling, i think to feel so free!
He responds to me; 'Mmm yes,Grrr!
... I'm understanding more how it might look to an outsider how, a Dom breaking a Sub powerfully would be showing her no concern or affection, while actually all of that is a necessary give and that would be even a step beyond that'.
He goes on to say; 'Mmmm i want it unrelentingly, passionately,
Intensely, brutally
...I want yr body marked, yr legs gone, yr tears flowing, yr walls crumbling, yr heart and soul ripped open and exposed'.
Mmm WOW!!!!
...How we both want and are feeling the same things in our dynamic - i want to feel all i have previously and, a whole lot of new with you too. I want you to "mark me".
Turn my legs to jelly, so im unable to stand if i tried, or you'd catch me if i fall, or watch me as i do.
Bring about my "flowing tears" that i'd normally hide & keep from falling, that are the beginning of that "free" feeling, for all i feel, "try" to hide and fail and, for all i express and show you of me as a person and as your Submissive.
"Crumble my walls", pull them down, open whats hidden deep within me, see it, embrace it and feel it with me, as yr Dominance, Control and our loss of it together - Bring about a "heart and soul, ripped open & exposed", laid bare before you to, take with you and keep, hold on to, so to nurture and help me see and bring about a new me ... A Spirit Completely Free'.
This i post as a tribute to how far "we" have come together on our journey with one another as 'us'.... and im humbled, touched and overwhelmed by you and so very blessed to have you in my life, i feel the luckiest Sub in the world, to have you as and call you My Sir!
Thank you for being you & for the beautifully eye opening, heart warming, overwhelming (amongst other things)... journey so far, and if i forget to say it ever
...Thank you for our journey ahead, and all that it holds within its paths for 'us', as you Truely dont ever fail to amaze and inspire me!!
Thank you
All my love
Your Sub
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