Now we'd agreed that any BDSM was bedroom only and that was the first time she'd called me Sir, I couldn't help but smile as I led her to the bed then used the under bed restraints to tie her down again.
She looked so good lying there I had to take it in for a moment, arse red from the spanking hair a tousled mess and I knew my patience for teasing had run out.
We had another epic night of fun and frolics and in the morning she said she'd been called into work and off she went....if only I knew then how things were going to go downhill.
I see Emily off and get ready to head for town for shopping, in and out in two and a half hours and as I pull up I wonder why I'd switched all the lights on and left them on....humping the shopping up to the house I walked into a a scene of utter devastation..there's drawers worth of stuff scattered all over and yep I'd been burgled. Cue frantically getting to my room and seeing stuff scattered everywhere as well, plus the toys we'd used the night before which I packed away as well as the knickers she'd left me.
Anyway for the rest of December we couldn't meet, as we just couldn't get our days to line up. Much winding up of each other continued and she went to visit her friend.
January 3rd 2024 I get a message from Emily saying she's struggling with a lot on her plate, I ask if there's anything I can do to help and we have a long chat where she tells me one of her best friends is really struggling and her son's being really hard work.
If you need just a chat don't be worried about using me as a sounding board and she does over the next couple of days until January 10th.
January 10th 2024 I've just woken up to learn my friend attempted suicide...I mean what do you say to that? I phoned her and obviously she's upset and begins apologising to me for not being around for a while, telling her I understand and I realise that I'm not that high on her priority list right now but I'm here if she needs me and if she wants peace to tell me. She thanks me and later that evening I get a message saying she needs some space.
January 13th I message Emily and hear nothing back.
January 14th hi sorry it's an utter shit show down here, I'm not sure what's going to happen with my friend now but we are all here with her.
And that was pretty much how January went.
February 2024
February was quite quiet between us but as the month moved on we began chatting again and on the 21st of February Emily asked if she could pop round, her sex drive had recovered from shit show January so we set a date which due to life got moved to the 25th (thank god for those banked holidays). Fisting, fucking and all round good fun was had and again if only I knew where this was headed I'd have done everything in my power to see her properly again.
March 2024 car booked in for an MOT and waited nearly two weeks to get the car back, Emily's friend still struggling so she'd shoot off down south most weekends.
Tried to arrange a meet just for a cuppa and a blether but it just wasn't easy with both working and no car.
April 4th 2024 this is the hard part, this is where it all crashed down around me but I wouldn't actually know that until yesterday 3rd May
Emily had said she was taking her boy to Orkney on a wee holiday and of course me being me got the dates mixed up (in my defense she'd told me in January) so I asked if she wanted to nip round today.
Messages me back with are you on Orkney?
AHH shite that's right I forgot.
I get a picture of her and her son on the boat, her smile radiating out at me and I get that funny feeling in my stomach as I realise that I'm falling for her.
April 5th until April 9th we messaged back and forth getting the craic over the next four days and she said that's them on the way back from Orkney.
14th April
I messaged her then realised that her phone's not been looked at since 9th April 08:13am. Not unusual for her to go a day not being on WhatsApp but 5?? My message was I'm wondering have you lost your phone, hope you are alright I miss my brat xx.
April 17th still her phone hasn't been looked at and I've been worried since my realisation, have I been ghosted? We'd talked about meeting each others families in December and agreed we'd carry on as we were and if things were still going well we'd meet the families in the summer.
I've gone to town shopping and I decided to stop off at her work and wait for her, at least have the nuts to tell me to my face. Then worry I'm being stalker like. I watch as everyone leaves her work but no Emily. My gut is telling me something is wrong but I have no one to chat with about her.
I try putting it to the back of my head but every now and again a memory will flash in front of me.
The following week I visit friends and family, every day I check my phone but there it is still....last seen 09 April 08:13am.
May 3rd 2024 I've been ghosted before and it doesn't get any easier, and the fact I was falling/fallen for Emily didn't make it any easier. Finally I decided to ring her work....I begin trembling like I've had a shot of adrenaline (I'm currently doing the same as the end of our tale approaches, and desperately trying not to start greeting)
The phone rings and rings, I'm about to hang up when I hear a female voice "hello your through to ...... ....... How may I help you" "Hi I'm just wondering if Emily is in today, please"
"Emily?" She asks "Oh I'm sorry to tell you but Emily is no longer with us"
I feel my heart sink right into the pit of my stomach "Oh" I replied "I'm sorry I've been trying to get a hold of her for a few weeks, I thought she'd lost her phone. Can you tell me where she's gone? At all?"
"Hold the line please" "Hello?" A different girl I begin babbling a bit telling her I'm a friend with benefits and I'm worried about her.
"I'm so sorry but Emily passed away, she fell ill after coming back from Orkney" I'm looking at my phone in disbelief
"Hello, are you still there?"...."hello?"
Absentmindedly I wipe the water from my phone not realising it's a tear yet, I'm numb "I'm sorry I must have misheard you, did you say she passed away?"
"Yes, I'm so sorry that you are finding out like this"
I can feel the rage, the pain, the loss building inside of me, I want to hit something so badly, I want to finish that whisky and vodka I've not touched for 4 years.
Explaining that I know of her family but don't know them the girl informs me that the funeral was on the 26th April and Emily was cremated and the family are struggling to figure out where to scatter her ashes.. I think I know where she'd love to be clava cairns, but now it feels like my throat has dried up and completely shut. I can't form a sentence.
Emily I miss you so much, your poor boy and parents must be devastated R.I.P. bratty never forgotten.
As I said earlier this is purely for me to try and flatten out my emotions a bit, to try and sort my head out. I've had just over 24 hours and I'm a mess since I found out
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"It will be my pleasure x"
" Hopefully be our pleasure x"
"Of course, sorry I wasn't up for it today. Will do better next time, and let you spank me or whatever"
"Haha don't worry about it, not an issue"
"So I'm alright with spanking, tying up, teasing, edging but don't attempt any breath play. My ex husband attempted to throttle me once and I will freak out. Can't wait to see what you have in your sex dungeon as well"
"Good to know, and noted. Better go just now as I'm cleaning up before my boys arrive later this evening"
Evening time
"Hi so I've told my friends about you, and they want to see you. These girls have had my back since we were 9, send me a picture please"
"A photo? I hate photos being taken of me....but here you go" cue one photo of me looks down on the camera
"Jesus, hold your phone at arms length and just above your head and smile for fuck sakes"
I laugh and snap a second photo and send it "Best your going to get"
"Just waiting"
"For what?"
"Approval"
"Haha, okay"
"I've already told them I had bonkers oral sex in a hide which elicited much laughter....also some kink based stories filtering through and I have learnt that referring to me as a brat isn't just acting like a spoiled child. Would get a lot of satisfaction being a total brat"
"Aye until I wrestle you and put you over my knee and spank you for it"
"This has hit the nail on the head for me, gives the whole thing a reason and not just arbitrary tying up or whatever....if you can catch me of course "
"That sounds like a challenge to me"
"Are you off this week again at all? I'm off Friday but could come down Thursday night?"
"I'll speak to the boss man, I barely took any hols last year and been told I need to use them ASAP. I'll message him now"
"Oh the verdict is in, the girls have spoken"
I'm aware that I'm not the best looking and this has me more nervous than our initial meet "Oh what's the verdict, grizzled old man, pervert looking?"
"No, beard needs a trim and three green flags"
"Haha that's after I took about two inches off yesterday morning as well. Glad I met their approval"
"Kind eyes, how big is his cock and thank god you actually met him. Be warned someone will make an effigy of you "
"Nosey beggars, how big is his cock hahaha. Well if I start getting shooting pains I'll at least know what is happening"
"As long as you are kind to me you'll be fine"
"Oh and we know the dimension of every penis that's been anywhere near us since we were 16"
"Do I want to know where I come?"
"I'd have to consult the annals, but I was quite startled by the size of it. Top 10% at a guess"
"Haha I'll take startled by it, didn't stop you sucking on me"
" Or gagging on it"
"Did you gag? Barely noticed, didn't think it would have been a good idea for you to walk out with slobber all over your jacket."
"I liked the risky side, it was very exciting"
"Hehe I could tell you liked it, you were so wet"
"In the summer we should go to eilean donan castle, I could wear a summer dress....I like the idea of me wearing light tights and you ripping them open and taking me in a nook around there"
"I like that idea, I'd be playing with you all the way there though. Changing rooms can be fun as well"
"I was just writing the same thing.... weird"
Our contact then led to us both playing watching each other on video.
