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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Pamela has been keeping a diary since she was 9. She started when she received a paper diary as a gift and now keeps it in text files on a thumb drive. At the time of this first entry, Pamel is 18 and starting her first full year at the local college.

Sept 8

First class today. The professor is kind of funny. I hope there's more to the lectures than entertainment. But then I can get most of what I need from the text. Thanks to mom's home schooling I can do that.

Sept 9

Settled in for the chem lab. It's not like last year when I was doing high secondary level chemistry here because we don't have a lab at home and mom isn't that much of a chem expert. If you remember, diary, I had a lab partner for that. This time it's only myself. I prefer that.

Oh, almost forgot. There's this really young guy in the class, maybe only 13 or 14. He's probably one of those smart kids who finished high school at 10 and will be done with college before he's 18. This really attractive girl was waiting for him outside of class. Probably his sister. I'm curious about him.

Sept 14

A different girl met that young guy after lab today. Gorgeous. I'm sure she wasn't his sister. They kissed pretty passionately when they met and she squeezed his butt and slipped her hand into his back pocket when they walked off. He had his arm around her waist. Now I'm really curious about what's going on.

Sept 20

I saw that really young guy walking with another girl today. I can't believe how beautiful they all are. They sure act like girlfriend and boyfriend. He had her hand on her butt and she had hers around his waist. I know I shouldn't have but I kind of followed them and she kissed him on the lips when they got in a car together and drove off. He didn't look to be much older than 15 and she must have been 20.

Sept 23

I think he caught me looking at him in lab today. I messed up my acid measurement and had to start all over. I snuck a peek at his note book. His name is Ronny A different girl met him, That's like the fourth one! This time she seemed much younger, closer to his age and wearing a Care Bears shirt. I thought for sure she might be his sister but I swear she grabbed his crotch when they kissed. Somehow I had the impression the pretty girls went for the strong, well built sports guys. Certainly not the brainy kids. Curiouser and curiouser.

Sept 29

Well it happened. I was eating lunch in the table in the corner where I like to sit and that young guy came into the cafeteria with probably the best looking of the girls that he hangs out with. I couldn't help staring. He saw me and I didn't look away fast enough. He got up and came over to me. I couldn't look at him afraid of what he might say.

I scribbled down every thing that happened afterwards so I wouldn't forget it and could tell it all to you, diary. Here it is:

He sat next to me and said "Excuse me," very politely.

I couldn't look at him and stared into my salad, "Hi".

He said, "I'm sorry. But I think you've been watching me."

I lied "Oh? No, no I haven't".

Him: "Oh, yes. Yes! No doubt about it. Do you know me?"

Me: "No. Except I think we're in the same chem lab."

Him: "I know you've been looking at me."

I decided to admit the truth "Well, I guess I have," I kept examining my salad.

He was extra pleasant and didn't seem to mind. "Is there a reason?"

I finally looked at him. He was smiling and not at all upset so I told him, "Well I was kind of curious about you. I was thinking you were one of those geniuses who got into high school at 11 or 12 and zipped through in no time"

Then he told me something very surprising, "I'm 19 and never skipped a grade. I was never held back either." He said that last with a really nice smile.

I told him "you always seem to have beautiful girls around. I thought maybe they were your sisters."

Him: "Nope, they aren't".

Me: "I gathered that. Too many of them and you don't walk around like brother and sister."

Him: "How's that?"

Me: "Well, there's a lot of touching ..."

Him: "Well, I guess there might be. Does that interest you?"

Me: "Just curious about why those good looking girls would be interested in you."

He really embarrassed me then, "You mean because I'm not good looking enough for them?"

I tried to get out of it, "OH NO! It's just that you don't seem like the type?"

He didn't let me off, "The type?" Looking at him I could tell he was just having some fun with me.

I went back to examining the salad, "I guess I don't really know what the type is. Just curious about it, that's all."

Then he said "Maybe you should find out from the horse's mouth."

He grabbed my tray with the salad and marched across the room to where the girl was. I had no choice but to grab my Coke and follow him over.

He introduced the girl as Jenny.

Jenny asked him if I was "More competition?"

He told her that he noticed me staring at him, "She said it's because I'm so young looking."

She looked right at me and said, "Understandable."

Then he told her that I wondered why so many good looking girls hang out with me. "So I thought you might be able to explain."

Jenny asked him if he was "Too modest to tell her yourself?" Then she got up and sat next to me so she could whisper her explanation.

I was really surprised when she told me, "It's because he's a sexual magician." Those are her exact words, "sexual magician".

Then she added "And he has this big cock." I could feel myself blushing and made some sort of exclamation.

Ronny had to get to a class and Jenny planted a huge kiss on his mouth as he left left. I'm pretty sure I saw her tongue go inside. She told him, "see you tonight."

I asked her about it and she told me She sees him every couple of weeks for sex. I swear, diary, I'm quoting her exactly, "I'm really looking forward to a night with that cock inside me, not to mention his other skills."

She told me he lives in his aunt and uncle's basement. with a completely private space with bed and bathroom. And she said, "even a TV for porn if that's your thing. There's an outside hot tub but you have to wear a bathing suit to use it because it's not so private. I bet he'd love to show it all to you."

She claimed she could tell he's interested in me saying, "He doesn't go and introduce himself to many girls."

I asked her about how he has so many if he doesn't pick them up

She said that those she knew of were introduced to him.

I questioned whether he was really interested in me, "He told me he came over only because I'd been watching him."

She told me that might be true but that, "I bet he'd be glad to show you a good time." Then she told me he'd. "Probably take you for a ride on the cock. You'll enjoy it."

I was embarrassed again and covered my face.

Jenny didn't stop, going on by saying, "And the pleasure can be intense. It's not just his cock he's good with." Then she whispered to me, "Like I said, A Sexual Wizard." I swear, again, Diary, I'm not making this up. I corrected her by telling her she had said a sexual magician and her response was, "Wizard, magician, distinction without a difference. So both. He's had four girls at once." She claimed that she was one of them and went on saying she had been with him "in an an orgy with 7 guys and 8 women." I swear, Diary, she told me, "When you get Ronny, you get a wild ride."

Well, diary, you can image how I can't get the thought of that "big cock" out of my mind. You know I've never seen an actual penis. Well except for the little nubs of my baby brothers' when I bathed the or changed their diapers. There are those diagrams mom used for the sex part of home school and there are those porn videos I've watched. If Ronny's penis is bigger than those it's hard to imagine it would fit inside any girl. I kept catching myself rubbing myself down there and had trouble concentrating on the afternoon lectures.

When I got home I locked the door and undressed so I could look at myself in the mirror wondering if this Ronny really might want me. Don't you think a sexual wizard or magician might be the best guy to take my virginity? I sure have the impression that big penises are better than smaller ones but I wonder if it might hurt more.

I guess I looked pretty good in the mirror. My face is maybe too round face but a lot of people say I'm "cute," I guess my large, round eyes and small nose help with that. I've always thought they were my best features. They say blondes attract the most guys. Mine is light brown and almost blonde, I wonder if that counts? I wonder if I should let my hair fall freely or tie it up rather than always braiding it in back. I do have big breasts. I like how soft they feel and I guess guys like bigger ones. My body is too thick, definitely chubby, if not fat. When I turn to the side I can see my tummy sticking out but there's no doubt that I have a waist, my large hips and butt make that obvious. I sure have a lot of hair over my genitals and it's darker than on my head. The girls in the porn videos have no hair down there or very little. I think they shave but I'd be afraid to be using a razor there. I wonder how much difference that would make to a guy?

Anyway, Diary, I guess I'm okay looking, especially with my clothes on. I'm 18 1/2 and maybe it's time to lose my virginity. I wonder if I should talk to mom about it? Do you think she'd freak out? That's not like her but I doubt she'd approve. I guess I'll sleep on it.

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Oct 1

I decided to go to chem lab today. I was feeling embarrassed that I'd see Ronny there. I'd bet anything that Jenny told him what she had told me. But lab isn't like the lectures where I could easily skip one since I'm getting most of my information from the text and I'm way ahead of the lectures anyway. I can. of course, go to one of the make-up lab sessions but can't do that all the time.

But it worked out. Ronny greeted me when he came in and I was able to do my work without looking at him since most of my curiosity was satisfied and I was too embarrassed to look a him when I'm thinking of asking him to take my virginity.

After class he met another of his girls.He introduced her to me as Katie. I thought I recognized her and she confirmed that she was in the same English class as me. If he had sex with Jenny yesterday as she had implied and then was he doing Katie today? Well, he must be doing it every night. Don't you think, Diary? How does he get around to his homework?

But the most important thing that happened today is that I decided to talk it over with mom. Like I had thought, she didn't like the idea but didn't freak out over it either. Oh, "it" is the Ron taking my virginity thing. It's kind of an obsession with me right now.

I just finished talking to mom so I'm writing this with it all fresh in my mind. She took it real calmly when I told her, "I 'm thinking about losing my virginity" Afterward she even thanked me for telling her. She revealed that my sister, hadn't told her at all and that she was disappointed when she found out, not so much that she was having sex, but that she hadn't been willing to tell my mom.

Back to the details.

I told her what I knew about Ronny, his young appearance and what Jenny said. "She said he was a sexual wizard and had a big penis. He's a really nice guy, easy to talk to. I was thinking maybe Ronny could take my virginity. You know, big penis and being a sexual wizard and all."

Mom said it was a big step and asked whether I "wouldn't prefer it be with someone you really care about and want to be with?"

My answer was that maybe it would be better with someone who can make it really enjoyable.

Mom told me "There is a huge emotional factor. I really think it should be with someone you know and like. You don't want to fall in love with this Ronny. He sounds pretty p

igate and a womanizer."

I agreed to think about it. I was thinking of Katie and told her "There's this other girl I've seen him with. She's in my English class I'll talk to her and let you know what I decide."

Mom told me 'I think you better start taking the birth control pills I got you if you haven't already."

I told her that I've been taking them.

She also told me to be sure to use a condom. "As many women as he has he could be a source of disease."

I agreed to that. I hadn't even considered that implication of his promiscuity.

I guess she felt obligated to repeatedly tell me that she recommended against it.

I was wondering how big Ronny's penis is and speculating about how big other guys were I asked how big dad's penis was. Mom seemed shocked and refused to answer. But then later she came back and said it was okay to ask and put her fingers about 6 inches apart. said I was surprised it was so small and she told me she thought it was about average. I wonder how she knows. Anyway that certainly doesn't jibe with what I've seen in on-line porn.

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By *lay-with-MeMan over a year ago

Whitchurch Shropshire

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

OCT 1

I caught up to Katie after English class. Told her I was a virgin and thinking of having sex with Ronny. I wrote down what she said in my English notebook, so this is it pretty much exactly, "God I wish I had had the chance to lose my virginity to Ronny instead of the jerk who pretended to like me just to get in my pants. Sex with Ronny is the most fun thing I've ever done. With him or anyone. And, yes, he does have a big penis and knows how to use it. But what makes Ronny special is that he knows how to concentrate on the woman's pleasure rather than his own. That's why it's so much fun. And he cares about the women, or sure seems to. He sure seems to care about me. He's also a good companion whether or not you're having sex. You're lucky if he came over to you. Not a lot of girls get that opportunity. If you do have Ronny take your virginity, you'll never regret it."

I swear, Diary, "you'll never regret it." That's what she said.

I asked her how big Ronny's penis was and she held her hands about a foot apart. I said that the porn guys were mostly that big. She laughed and said the porn guys were picked for big penises. I asked how big the average was and she said maybe six inches just like mom had claimed. She told me, "I've had my share and you'll not get them as big as Ronny very often."

And then she told me about a girl, Evaa, who had been at a sex party she was at with Ronny, "she can tell you more."

OCT 2

I decided to check with the girl and went to the local bar to see if she was there. I was kind of reluctant to go to a topless place, but, guess what, Diary, it isn't a topless place as i had thought. The waitresses were all well endowed but wore white shirts and these really skimpy shorts. Most of the customers were men.

I asked for Evaa and a striking redhead with freckle sprinkled mounds of breast flesh being pushed out of her bra came over. Diary, I was astonished that Ronny had women more attractive than Jenny, but Evaa was evidence otherwise.

She confirmed everything. Honestly, Diary, she said, "Well for one I would have loved to have him take my virginity instead of the jerk who did."

Diary, is it necessary to call every guy who takes your virginity a jerk?

Evaa went on and on about Ronny's sexual abilities. She told me Ronny is great with his cock, and with his fingers and tongue. I guess I couldn't appreciate it since I've never had it done to me but she really expounded on what he could do with his fingers and tongue. She said he's, "absolutely the best sex partner." Diary, I wouldn't put it in quotes if that wasn't exactly what she said. She claimed he's always considerate about his sexual partners. And said maybe that's why he's so great in bed. She claimed there wouldn't be "a single woman whose been with Ronny that wouldn't tell you the same." And she added, "They would have preferred to have given up their virginity to Ronny." and told me, "You're in an enviable position." All-in-all, Diary, that was high praise and made me feel almost guilty if I didn't have Ronny take my virginity.

Evaa told me about these two other girls, Sammy and Serina. She said they know Ronny best and gave me their phone numbers. She told me that Sammy's away at school and that Serina and her mom work at a strip joint north of town." Yep, Diary, the girls are strippers. Ronny does get around.

I thought I should order something to eat and while I was eating four other waitresses stopped by my table. One dropped off a napkin. I have it and this is what's written on it, "Lucky girl. Give your virginity to Ronny. I wish I'd had the chance." Two of them just leaned over and told me basically the same thing in different words. The fourth actually sat down and talked for a minute to convey the same message. She departed with a forceful claim, "You'd be an idiot if you don't take advantage of this opportunity." That's another exact quote, Diary!

God! Diary! I keep rubbing at my little pleasure button, my clitoris. But thinking about Ronny and everything I'm being told, I can't help it. My pleasure button sure feels good and sometimes tickles so much I can't stand it. I wonder, if Ronny and his fingers and tongue and cock ... Well I just wonder what it would be like. No, Diary, what it WILL be like. I've made up my mind.

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By *ussyeater692Man over a year ago

Wrexham

Brilliant, I can't wait for more

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By *lay-with-MeMan over a year ago

Whitchurch Shropshire

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Oct 3

I told my mom about my decision and she was still very doubtful and tried to dissuade me from my decision. She thought maybe Ronny had set them up to it.

I told her that I had approached them. They didn't come to me. I said, "Katie said she has fun with Ronny. He sounds great." I told very clearly that Katie said If Ron takes my virginity, I'd never regret it. "That's what Katie said, mom, I'll NEVER regret it. NEVER! Not forget, mom, REGRET, never REGRET." I told her the waitresses said almost exactly the same thing and showed her the napkin.

She said that the women, might be kind of loose and weren't to be trusted.

I was disgusted by that and told her they were all nice and that I didn't think they were lying. I told her something like, "and if they have a lot of sex don't you think they would know a good lay?"

That didn't go over well and mom accused me of being "crude." so I apologized. There was one thing I did want to know so I asked her if all the guys who took girls virginity were 'jerks'. I even asked if the the guy who took her virginity was a jerk?"

She told me that they weren't all jerks but that some guys pretended to like girls just so they could have sex, "That's why you need to be careful." She never said anything about her own first time.

Even though I didn't need mom's permission and had already made my decision, I would still like her to understand. So, to help her know why, I called the Sammy that Evaa had told me about and put the conversation on speaker so mom could listen in, admonishing her not to say anything. I recorded the conversation so I could transcribe it directly to you, Diary.

I made the call and a female voice answered.

Me: "Can I speak to Sammy?"

Voice at other end: "Just a second I'll get her."

Me (quickly): "Is this her mother?"

Voice at other end: "Yes."

Me: "I'd like to speak to you too."

Sammy's mom: "What about?"

Me: "Do you know Ronny?"

Sammy's mom: "Ronny, I'm not sure, let me get Sammy."

I heard Sammy pick up and her mother asked, "This young lady is asking about a Ronny? Do you know him"

Sammy: "Of course. And you do too. mom. He was at the party, remember. Young looking, big ..." [pause]

Sammy's mom: "Of course. RONNY! Of course, big ..." [another pause]

Me: "Big penis," (I remember suppressing a laugh and looking at my mother.)

Me: "Yes, that's the guy."

Me (after a short pause): "I was wondering, ... " [I had originally planned a different conversation but, now that Ronny's big penis was in play, I decided to take a direct approach.]

Me: "He introduced himself to me the other day and I was thinking of letting him, uhh, well, like, take my virginity."

Sammy (sounding surprised): "He came up to you?"

Me: "Yes, while I was eating lunch."

Sammy: "Not like Ronny."

Sammy's mom: "Why not?"

Sammy: "He's really shy, mom. You wouldn't know. You have this way with guys that makes them feel like they've known you a long time. But yes, he's shy."

Sammy's mom: "He seemed to jump right in with the women at the party."

Sammy: "That app of dad's was pairing him up, and it was telling him what to do, and besides, the votes showed they all wanted him, remember, number one, unanimous."

Me: "So all the women at the party liked him?"

Sammy and her mom (almost together and with enthusiasm): "Oh yes, they liked him!"

Sammy's mom: "Big cock," [I think that was supposed to explain why they liked him.]

Sammy: "Mostly he really knew how to please them."

My mom [I guess unable to restrain herself]: "What went on at that party?"

Sammy's mom: "Who's that?"

[I remember glaring at my mom] Me: "That was my mom. I wanted her to listen in. She wasn't supposed to say anything."

Sammy's mom: "Oh, have we been too explicit?"

Me: "No, it's okay."

Sammy (sounding surprised): "You have your mother listening in while you discuss losing your virginity?" [I'm not sure why she was surprised. Her mom was participating with relish.]

Me: "Well, yes, she always has good advice. In fact I'm talking to you to help her know about Ronny." [Diary, I guess Sammy knows most moms aren't like hers, or mine either.]

Sammy: "I guess it's sort of pertinent. It was a sex party. Guys and women had sex with each other. My dad has a multi-user app that paired them up for sexual activity. My friend Sallie had, like a week before, taken Ronny's virginity and one thing Sallie does is take inexperienced guys and teach them how to please a woman. She's a good teacher and, from all evidence, Ronny was an excellent student, top of the class."

Me: "So you are saying that Ronny was a virgin just a short while ago?"

Sammy: "Maybe a couple of months ago."

Sammy's mom: "And now he's offering to take this girl's virginity?"

Me: "He didn't offer. There was this other girl, Jenny, and she was praising Ronny's sexual ability. I started thinking about it."

Sammy: "That makes more sense. I don't think he's the kind of guy to go looking for women to have sex with."

My mom: "It sounds like he has sex with a lot of girls."

Sammy: "All were introduced to him by other women so far as I know. Well, except Sallie, who was introduced to him by his cousin. Sallie and I invited all the women to the party. Some friends from school and Sallie invited a girl, Evaa and another school friend. They introduced him to some other girls and work buddies. From what I can tell, they all have good times with him. Not all, sexual."

Sammy (again): "So far as I know, you're a first. A girl he actually introduced himself to."

Sammy's mom: "Sounds like he's getting over any shyness. I doubt she'll be the last."

Me: "What about letting him take my virginity?"

Sammy's mom: "Up to you my dear,"

Sammy [much more helpful]: "I guarantee you'll enjoy it. From what I understand not a lot of girls do. My first experience was not great and we were both experimenting. I wouldn't give up the memories for anything. But the idea of having Ronny be the first instead of an inexperienced guy ... It's a real fantasy. I know that Ronny cares about every single woman he has sex with and is entirely focused on her pleasure. You needn't have any concern that he'll mistreat you in any way." [Then I guess she she fantasized aloud] "God! having Ronny as my first. The big cock, those wonderful hands and fingers. I'm getting an orgasm just thinking of it."

My mom: "Isn't the big penis a problem?"

Sammy's mom: "I don't think so. I suspect almost any woman's vagina can handle it, virgin or not."

Sammy: "Ronny will be careful, He'll stop at the least sign of pain. No doubt!" [I'm really liking her.

Me [deciding to close before my mother starts asking more embarrassing questions] "You have been a big help,. Thanks a lot."

Sammy: "Let me know what you decide and how it goes. And be sure to check out his underwear."

Me (this to my mom after hanging up): "I'm going to do it!"

If nothing else, Diary, I need to find out about that 'underwear' comment.

After hearing what Sammy and her mother said about Ronny, I don't think my mother had any more concerns about him instigating the idea of taking my virginity. But she did have a concern that bothered me. She said that when girls have sex with someone they can get emotionally attached and that even though Ronny might treat the women with concern and care, he clearly doesn't have an emotional commitment to them. "I'm worried you will fall in love with him," is what she told me. She warned me about being possessive and jealous of Ronny's other girls. I already feel some envy every time I see him on campus with someone else and when they meet him after lab. I don't know how to avoid it. I'm already hooked.

When I left to go to bed mom told me two things, in a voice tinged with sadness, "Take your pills." And, "Use a condom." Oh, three things, "I recommend against it." AGAIN diary, it's like a broken record, [That's a strange saying, what does it mean anyway?].

Oct 4

I didn't see Ronny at school today but I'm going to ask him to take my virginity tomorrow before Chem Lab.

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By *lay-with-MeMan over a year ago

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By *eterpervisMan over a year ago

back where i came from

Fantastic story, love the way it’s told as a dialogue with her diary.

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By *ersey GentMan over a year ago

St Peter

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By *oss25Man over a year ago

Flitwick and Fakenham

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Oct 5

What a day! I actually told Ronny I wanted him to take my virginity. It took a lot to get up my courage to do it. I worried about it all day and couldn't concentrate in my classes. I chickened out before chem lab. I did manage to ask him to talk after class.

Lab felt like it wouldn't end. I couldn't concentrate on the experiment and messed up TWICE! I'm going to have to go to a make-up lab to redo most of it. I kept looking over at Ronny and he was intent on his experiment. The only coherent thought I had was that I could do the experiment in a make-up lab.

When the lab period was over, my whole body was shaking like a flag in a strong wind. I could hardly get to my feet as I watched Ronny come over to my lab station. I kept thinking that this whole idea was a mistake. But as I struggled to my feet I took a deep breathe and told myself I was going to do it.

But then when he actually asked what I wanted to talk about my conviction took flight. I only manage to tell him that I'd like to talk more privately. He told me he was meeting someone after the lab but would arrange it. When we came out, Katie was there and greeted me. Ronny seemed surprised that we knew each other and Katie reminded him that we were in English class together. Ronny told Katie he needed to talk to me for a bit and suggested that Katie meet him in the Student Union. Katie said she had to get some books in the library and to meet her there. She asked how long it would be and Ronny looked at me. I said only 10 or 15 minutes and Katie asked if this was about what I had asked her about. I just smiled. She understood and smiled back and told Ronny she'd see him in the library.

I was nervous and took him out to the quad and one of those benches partially surrounded by bushes.

He sensed my nervousness and asked, "What's the problem?" putting his arm around me.

I let the whole thing out in on long word, like, "Iwasgoingtoaskyoutohavesexwithme,"

I don't think he caught all that because he looked at me quizzically.

Once I said it, it was easier to say again, more slowly and deliberately. "I want to have sex with you."

His response was, "we hardly know each other," and the other was, "I never asked you."

I told him I had talked to some girls about it and they convinced me that having him take my virginity was something I wanted.

"That's what Katue meant," he responded.

"Probably Jenny too," he said and I realized he probably hadn't heard the "virginity" part. "It's the cock isn't it?" he added.

I told him that Jenny telling me about his big penis did get my interests but that the girls I talked to (and I named them) all said that they had all wished they had lost their virginity to him.

This time he heard it and said, "lost WHAT?"

I told him flat out, "My virginity. I want my first time to be with you."

He said, "You hardly know me. Shouldn't the first time be with someone you care about?"

I told him the others had thought their first time was with "someone they cared about" but that most of them turned out to be jerks and repeated that all of them would have preferred it had been him. I told him they all said he'd care about me and be sure I enjoyed it.

He protested that he "didn't know anything about virginity."

I said all the other girls seemed to think he knew enough.

Well, diary, I had hoped he'd agree but he was undecided and before leaving to meet Katie said he'd think about it and get back to me.

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By *d funMan over a year ago

Telford

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Oct 9

Ronn6 texted me to meet him in the quad. And guess what? He said he'd do it. Said he'd looked into it and that we should get together twice. I already know when. Less that a week until the first time! October 11th! I'm stoked!!!

Oct 10

It's tomorrow! This wait is killing me. Tomorrow, diary, I'll tell you all about it.

Oct 11

Well, am I still a virgin? Honestly, diary, I'm not sure. One thing I am sure of is that whatever it was, it was fantastic! All except for the part about my vagina being kind of sore.

I guess I should explain the not sure part. My hymen is broken. That's what Ronny did today. But I haven't yet had his penis inside me. He's going to do that part

. For that matter, I haven't even seen his penis, or his underwear, yet. But I could feel a big tube in his pants.

I was nervous all day and had trouble paying attention in class. My stomach was full of butterflies when I went to the quad to meet Ron. He was there already and my legs felt like jelly as I walked up. He was smiling and asked me if I was ready and still wanted to go through with it. I told him I was more than ready and more than ever wanted to do it. He gave me a big kiss and a hug, squeezing my butt gently. I felt his penis pressing against my leg.

He was really sweet and sensed my nervousness. He did all the talking because I could hardly get a word out, my mouth was sooo dry. On the drive over to his place he told me he lived at his aunt and uncle's house. They let him stay in the basement that had been a storage room and dumping ground for their junk. He said he had to clean it up. He told me "My mom arranged it. My aunt doesn't want my cousins to know about my sexual activity so I keep the door closed all the time."

He told me that he had spent time looking into the subject of taking a woman's virginity. "I've been looking into how best to introduce a woman to sex. There's quite a lot about it on the internet."

I asked him about it and he said we should do it gradually. Break your hymen first then give it a chance to heal before actual intercourse. He said that's why he had decided on two meetings. He was only going to break my hymen today.

I thought that sounded too clinical. but he said he would make sure I enjoyed it and that he wasn't planning any exact procedure. He said he thought we would just "play around". And told me he'd do his best to ensure I have a good time. And, diary, he really followed through on that!!!

Then he told me he had a really nice camera and he thought I might want a record of what we do. He told me it was my choice and that He'd edit out anything I wanted deleted. He said he especially thought I might like pictures of my hymen "before it's gone forever," and he said, "I can get you good close-ups. I've never seen a hymen myself. And we can see it as it's broken. I can set it up to get it in slow motion."

That sounded really amazing to me and I told him so, asking "why wouldn't I want that?"

He pointed out that I might worry about him putting it on the internet or sharing it."

I hadn't thought of that but I did want to see it. He assured me that we could delete it right away or that he would immediately give me the memory chip so I could do what I wanted with it and he wouldn't have a copy. I thought that sounded best. So, diary, I have the whole thing recorded. The slow motion is something else. I'll describe that later.

He took me in through a gate to the back yard and a side door. It didn't look like anyone was home as we went down the stairs and I got a peek into the kitchen. He told me his aunt and uncle were at work and his cousins were at school. "No one to bother us for an hour or two."

The basement was really private with a door at the top of the stairs that he locked. Even when they came home we wouldn't be interrupted. There was a bed, a couch, a table and chairs, even a small bathroom with a shower.

I had been shaky and slightly nauseous on the drive but now that we were actually here I felt strangely calm and asked if I should get undressed. For some reason I just felt like being naked in front of him and, of course, wanted to see him naked too.

He told me that we could, but suggested we "begin where we left off."

I didn't know what he meant by "where we left off" and he led me to the to the couch and said, "Yes, with a kiss. Then we'll see when the clothes should come off."

He set up the camera and came to the couch.

He took me in his arms and brought his mouth to mine. As he kissed he pushed his tongue into my mouth. I was surprised and pulled away. I know I shouldn't have but he was understanding and told me to relax and use my own tongue. That sounded kind of gross but I relaxed and let his tongue gently explore my mouth. At the same time he began stroking my body through my clothes. That felt really great but strange. Feelings I'd never really experienced before tingled through me. I pushed my tongue into his mouth. I told him "That's weird." I suppose that was a kind of virginity thing too. I've never kissed a boy before, well not really, there was that boy whose name I don't remember, though you do, diary. The one at that birthday party for the girl I used to play with in the park. And that wasn't a kiss with his tongue in my mouth!

He withdrew his hand and said he could stop. That was the last thing I wanted. His hand felt especially good on my breast so I pulled his hand back, putting it firmly on my breast. I just wanted to feel it there. I really meant that having his tongue in my mouth felt strange and I told him so. He said I didn't need to do it. I said we'd do it however it was supposed to be done and he said there were no rules about how it should be done. "If you feel like it, just bring your mouth to mine. Use your tongue if you want or not." Then he began nuzzling my neck and gently rubbing my breast. I got more and more excited and there was a growing tingle, kind of an itch, in my crotch. I wanted to rub it but had this urge for someone, anyone else to be rubbing me, rubbing my genitals. I didn't know I could feel that way. Anyway, I grabbed his hand and moved it down. But he didn't do what I wanted. Instead he was rubbing my thighs, getting close to but not actually helping me get rid of the incredible "itch". I was gasping for breath as he came close and then moved away. My body was no longer under my control. The whole thing felt incredibly pleasurable but a pleasure that just wasn't all there. It's really hard to describe. He had moved one hand inside my bra and was gently massaging my breast and rubbing my nipple. God, so much pleasure in my breast and belly and crotch. It was almost unbearable. I could feel the crotch of my panties was cold from wetness. Then he pulled his hand from my thigh and slid it inside my panties. My body was squirming almost involuntarily and I knew what I wanted, "Clothes, off, Now!" I told him

He stood and took me by the hand. I stood too even though my body felt like a rag doll. He unzipped my dress and pulled it over my head. Then he led me to the bed where he removed my bra. I felt the chill of the air and my nipples tightening. He kissed them and I felt my body covered in goosebumps. Then he pulled down my panties. I stepped out of them, the air feeling almost cold on my damp crotch. He had me lie on the bed and spread my legs. with both hands kneading my breast he started licking at my genitals. Every time his tongue hit my clitoris a shock of pleasure went through my body and I gasped at its intensity. I just wanted more and more of what he was doing. I grabbed his head to force it harder into my crotch. The pleasure was so intense as to be unbearable but I didn't want it to go away. I heard myself wailing, "Oh God! Oh God, Stop! No, don't stop! Stop! Keep going!" You know I rub my clitoris myself sometimes and it was kind of like that but having a guy doing it, well, it's different, and better.

Waves of pleasure intensified as I felt him concentrating on my clitoris, licking faster and harder. Then my body erupted in an explosion of pleasure. that I couldn't hold back or stop. My body was vibrating like my dad's motorboat and Ronny was fueling it with a finger at my clitoris. He stopped but my abdomen kept throbbing and the pleasurable feeling persisted for some time. Ron kissed me and I pulled him to me. My tongue all the way in his mouth I kissed him back hard and passionately. That's how to kiss I thought to myself.

I felt totally relaxed and released the kiss asking him if I was still a virgin. He told me I was since my hymen is still intact and he never penetrated me. Then I asked if sex was always like that, so intense. He said it was always great for him but he didn't know other than that women seemed to really like it. He told me they reacted differently ( some screamed, some laughed, some made other noises, very few were quiet) but all of them had strong body and abdominal movements like I did.

While we were talking he was setting up his camera and attached it to the wide screen TV. He told me I could watch while it's recording.

I asked him if we were going to have actual intercourse now but he said he was going to break my hymen first and reminded me that we'd have intercourse Friday.

I adjusted myself to see the TV. as Ronny focused the camera close-up on my vulva. Fleshy, and hairy labia filled the screen. the flaps of my minor labia spread slightly from the slit. He gently stroked the flaps with his finger. I watched them come out of hiding and a tiny, smooth, shinny ball that was my clitoris appeared at the top of the screen. Ron moved his finger to my clitoris and stroked it. I felt the excitement of pleasure growing in my crotch. I noticed my genitals gradually getting pinker. The flaps of my labia seemed to stick together as they expanded and then they suddenly blossomed, pulling slightly apart revealing glistening, damp pinkness inside.

Diary, it was fascinating to watch. So fascinating that I didn't realize how aroused I was. But then Ron's clitoral manipulations gave me a sudden start. I jerked as he stroked my clitoris. At that he stopped and used his fingers to spread my labial flaps wider. He spread my vaginal opening wide and pointed to a thin pinkish film of skin with two small holes on the screen. "I think that's it. Can you see it?" he asked.

He adjusted the camera so that the vaginal entry filled the screen. As he once again pulled my labia apart the thin film was clearly obvious. He started the slow motion recording and took what looked to be a letter opener from the night stand. He told me he had sterilized it with bleach and alcohol to use because his finger would get in the way of the camera.

"Are you okay?" he asked me and I nodded, fascinated by the point of the letter opener coming into the camera's field of view.

I asked if it would hurt. and he said he didn't know but that he'd read it hurts some girls a lot and others barely notice.

I had been so preoccupied with deciding what to do that I hadn't really looked into this but it seemed Ron had done a complete investigation. I asked about what I had heard, "Isn't there supposed to be blood?" He told me that there would probably be some but not a lot.

I looked at the hymen on the TV screen and the point of the letter opener poised next to them. I just said, "Do it."

He pushed the letter opener into the division between the openings in my hymen. It took a bit of pressure and the hymen suddenly gave way. It hurt a little like a pin prick and droplets of blood appeared at each side of my vagina. I could see a black hole that now led, unimpeded, to the inside of my vagina. Ronny pointed out some remnants of the hymen membrane to the side of the entry. He took a piece of gauze and gently wiped away the blood, some of the membrane also came free. That was more painful but the pain immediately went away.

I asked if we could have intercourse now but he said he'd read that it could be painful and unpleasant until the broken hymen heals. He said he also thought that an uninterrupted session would be best. Go right from what we did earlier into the act itself. Then he claimed that he could get me ready and PLEASE ME MORE if he could insert his fingers. That's right, diary, "please me more." Doesn't seem possible, but he claimed women seem to get the most pleasure when he can also finger the inside of their vagina and "massage the G-spot." I've heard of that, diary.

Ronny tried an experiment and slowly inserted his finger into my vagina and it hurt enough that I squealed.

So, diary, I have to wait until Friday to see his penis and have actual intercourse. I have the gauze pad with the blood from my hymen on it as a souvenir. I don't know whether to keep it or trash it.

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By *uiteCurlyMan over a year ago

Glastonbury

More please

it’s kind of torture but I like it a lot. Thank you.

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By *uiteCurlyMan over a year ago

Glastonbury

You posted the next bit as I was reading. Awesome. I’ll read it now.

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By *kpiercedCouple over a year ago

walsall

Fantastic reading

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By (user no longer on site) OP over a year ago

Oct 12

Well, I told my mom about yesterday and even wanted to show her the slow motion video of my hymen being broken. She didn't want to see it though. I think It's kind of neat. The point of the letter opener Ronny used slowly comes in from the left and then you can see it pressing the strip of membrane between the two holes. Then suddenly the strip breaks and the membrane flies to the sides leaving a gaping hole. Even in slow motion it happens really fast. I stepped through it and it's only three frames. Anyway.

I've pushed my finger into my vagina to see if it hurt. It doesn't. That's the first thing I've ever had in there. It felt nice but I'm not sure what the attraction is. I'm tempted to try something bigger but I'm going to wait for his penis.

I saw Ronny at chem lab. He came over before class and asked how I was doing. I told him about how I pushed my finger in and it didn't hurt. He smiled at the news and said, "See you Friday." I'm so anxious. My panties were damp when I got home.

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By *nly1meMan over a year ago

here there n everywhere

Mmmm sounding good

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By *d funMan over a year ago

Telford

So good

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By *ardsoloMan over a year ago

Harlow

Great story so far, can't wait for the next chapter

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By *lderWiserNowMan over a year ago

Kettrin

Wow so fantastic

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By *lay-with-MeMan over a year ago

Whitchurch Shropshire

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By *ememberTheNameMan over a year ago

barnsley

"Pamela has been keeping a diary since she was 9. She started when she received a paper diary as a gift and now keeps it in text files on a thumb drive. At the time of this first entry, Pamel is 18 and starting her first full year at the local college.