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So close, yet so far away.....
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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The middle of the night and sleep eludes me once again so indulge me in this tale friends. This is a sad and reflective day for me. Twenty one years ago today I thought my life was over and I would never be happy again. My firstborn son lost his lifelong battle against chronic illness at the age of just four years. A happy, engaging child, he was an inspiration and sheer joy to all who came into contact with him. Life can be so unfair. So..although today I may wish to pull the duvet over my head and make it go away...i wont. I'll put on the full war paint and the best frock and celebrate the fact that even for a brief time he was mine. I'll remember the silly songs, sesame street, the walks along the beach with ice creams, the dressing up and the finger painting that adorned the walls, the furniture and indeed the dog! Music will play and I may well sing and dance for life goes on for I have found that no matter what befalls us hope and happiness are just around the corner if we have the patience and courage to look for it. Silly and frivolous I may be but that is because I know how precious the joyful moments are. Without the love and continuing support of my dear friends my life would be very different and I thank them for just being there. No matter what you are facing, and this life is indeed full of cruelties and injusticies...and we should continue to rage against them ... there is always tomorrow. So....if you are lucky enough to have those you love and care for close to you today....hold them tight, especially the little ones...for none of us know the moment it may all be snatched away.
Today may be tough....but tomorrow WILL be better. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Wow,not much more you can say to that,and it doesnt seem silly or frivolous in the slightest,always good remembering the good times,no matter how short they were.
Chin up and keep smiling  |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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I (mrs dlt) have those same feelings for my dad,
You are a strong woman,my thoughts are with you today,
It's something we never get over we get used to it,(so they say) |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Very touching post , no words can ease your pain , however good friends , positive people and a healthy thought process helps each of us through some really testing times in life. Thank you for sharing your personal story. Sending you good wishes and a day where you will be able to smile through the tears .. you have all the memories in your heart and always will have , I'm sure you are surrounded by his love.
hugs and thoughts are with you honey ... You're a strong woman ..  xxx |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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My Little Angel.
You’ve just walked on ahead of me
And I’ve got to understand
You must release the ones you love
And let go of their hand.
I try and cope the best I can
But I’m missing you so much
If I could only see you
And once more feel your touch.
Yes, you’ve just walked on ahead of me
Don’t worry I’ll be fine
But now and then I swear I feel
Your hand slip into mine.
God Took Him To His Loving Home
God saw him getting tired, a cure was not to be.
He wrapped him in his loving arms and whispered ‘Come with me.’
He suffered much in silence, his spirit did not bend.
He faced his pain with courage, until the very end.
He tried so hard to stay with us but his fight was not in vain,
God took him to His loving home and freed him from the pain. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"My Little Angel.
You’ve just walked on ahead of me
And I’ve got to understand
You must release the ones you love
And let go of their hand.
I try and cope the best I can
But I’m missing you so much
If I could only see you
And once more feel your touch.
Yes, you’ve just walked on ahead of me
Don’t worry I’ll be fine
But now and then I swear I feel
Your hand slip into mine.
God Took Him To His Loving Home
God saw him getting tired, a cure was not to be.
He wrapped him in his loving arms and whispered ‘Come with me.’
He suffered much in silence, his spirit did not bend.
He faced his pain with courage, until the very end.
He tried so hard to stay with us but his fight was not in vain,
God took him to His loving home and freed him from the pain. "
Those words are so touching, |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"My Little Angel.
You’ve just walked on ahead of me
And I’ve got to understand
You must release the ones you love
And let go of their hand.
I try and cope the best I can
But I’m missing you so much
If I could only see you
And once more feel your touch.
Yes, you’ve just walked on ahead of me
Don’t worry I’ll be fine
But now and then I swear I feel
Your hand slip into mine.
God Took Him To His Loving Home
God saw him getting tired, a cure was not to be.
He wrapped him in his loving arms and whispered ‘Come with me.’
He suffered much in silence, his spirit did not bend.
He faced his pain with courage, until the very end.
He tried so hard to stay with us but his fight was not in vain,
God took him to His loving home and freed him from the pain.
Those words are so touching,"
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"My Little Angel.
You’ve just walked on ahead of me
And I’ve got to understand
You must release the ones you love
And let go of their hand.
I try and cope the best I can
But I’m missing you so much
If I could only see you
And once more feel your touch.
Yes, you’ve just walked on ahead of me
Don’t worry I’ll be fine
But now and then I swear I feel
Your hand slip into mine.
God Took Him To His Loving Home
God saw him getting tired, a cure was not to be.
He wrapped him in his loving arms and whispered ‘Come with me.’
He suffered much in silence, his spirit did not bend.
He faced his pain with courage, until the very end.
He tried so hard to stay with us but his fight was not in vain,
God took him to His loving home and freed him from the pain. "
My dear one...you always know the right things to say...but knowing me as you do...these sentiments are all the more touching. You are a very special man and i thank you from the bottom of my heart xxx |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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I can only thank you all for your kind words. Good people...with true hearts will always come through. We are all strong...we just dont know how strong until we are tested but the secret is not to become bitter and hardened and still feel the emotions that make us human. So yes...i may appear strong....but that is because i am surrounded by kindness. After consultation the family have decided that a teddy bears picnic is the order of the day...so yes...more cake for miss a.....and i'll have the bears' share too!!!!! x |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"  for u my old friend. H.O.P.E as u said to me...special ((hug)) for u
awe...you remembered...
Hold On Pain Ends... x"
Very good, must remember that one. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Big hugs to you , my best friend also lost a child when he was a toddler and ive seen what she has went through over the years, and how much she has come on , stay strong,
and keep your chin up , xxxxx |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Sending you a hug. I had a stillbirth at term 20 years ago and I still think of him every single day.
Sending all my love and hugs to close friends on here. Live for today - tomorrow comes all too soon. |
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Thank you for sharing such a personal heart rending experience .... Can only offer (((hugs))) and that I'm thinking of you.
Hoping the support of family and friends here help you through the day, and cake of course!
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Well...tomorrow is here and although my life seems to be spent looking back...its good things to look forward to today. I wish you all knew the difference your kind words made yesterday. It was a big decision for me to share my story...its so very deep and personal but you know, just the telling of it eased the pain a little. Acknowledging that..yes, it still hurts...but i cope.... as do the many other folk who deal with tragic loss day
in day out. So.. again...thank you. You helped me through. Love truly never dies. |
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