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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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I'm a bugger for ruining things...I cant help. If something is going well you can guarantee I'll fuck it up. Most of it is out of fear and worry that I'll end up hurt
Is anyone else the same?
Please make me feel less weird and shit haha
Ps sorry to you (you know who you are) for being a dickhead.  |
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By *aitonelMan
over a year ago
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Don't know about self sabotage, as that on some level requires intent to do so, whether consciously or subconsciously.
However I certainly have a knack for making things worse and fucking shit up for myself, usually when intending to do the opposite. |
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By *aliWoman
over a year ago
S Wales |
Firstly, thank you for doing such an honest post. And yes every time!
No matter what anyone says I still doubt myself and get in my own head.
Any tips on how to stop or even just reduce this would be greatly appreciated x |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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It's crazy isnt it.
In the fab world I've havent done overly well on meeting the right man/men. Finally one comes along who wants the same, has his head screwed on, knows how to handle my crazy and i just cant help but run off scared 
Stupid woman haha |
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By *reya73Woman
over a year ago
Whitley Bay |
Best thing to do is what you're doing .. notice it for what it is. Have a peep and see why.. what is not resolved from your life wounds? Then work on that. That will help break the cycle of behaviour. You're on it!
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By *eliWoman
over a year ago
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Eurgh it's bloody annoying. Sometimes it's pushing something that you know will upset you and you don't want to happen/know but a small part of you hope it's not so, even though you know it is. It's really fucking stupid. I'm learning not to do it and so far that's going really well for me. I think. Right now I'm in my uncertain phase. 
I hope that things get sorted for you OP, x |
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By *hunky GentMan
over a year ago
Maldon and Peterborough |
"It's crazy isnt it.
In the fab world I've havent done overly well on meeting the right man/men. Finally one comes along who wants the same, has his head screwed on, knows how to handle my crazy and i just cant help but run off scared
Stupid woman haha "
Can we run scared together?  |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"It's crazy isnt it.
In the fab world I've havent done overly well on meeting the right man/men. Finally one comes along who wants the same, has his head screwed on, knows how to handle my crazy and i just cant help but run off scared
Stupid woman haha "
You’ve run off scared or done something to put him off? If he can handle your crazy then he’ll be around still and you can go back.
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"It's crazy isnt it.
In the fab world I've havent done overly well on meeting the right man/men. Finally one comes along who wants the same, has his head screwed on, knows how to handle my crazy and i just cant help but run off scared
Stupid woman haha
You’ve run off scared or done something to put him off? If he can handle your crazy then he’ll be around still and you can go back.
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I've just been very up and down and done his head in.  I'm hoping I can show him that I'm
worth it haha  |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Please don’t be so hard on yourselves, we all have our reasons but you’re not always to blame. Sometimes we take the Mick out of ourselves that’s just a self protection thing |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"I’m a professional at fucking things up 
But Cheeky you seem to have your shit together!! God what hope for the rest of us"
I’m my own worst enemy at times |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did."
Oh my darling! That must have been so hard. No one deserves that.
I know it wont help but I send my love to you xx |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did."
That post made me feel so sad. I'm a single dad to a teenage girl and I would never let her down like that. |
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By *hunky GentMan
over a year ago
Maldon and Peterborough |
"I’m a professional at fucking things up
But Cheeky you seem to have your shit together!! God what hope for the rest of us
I’m my own worst enemy at times "
Well. I'm one of many that think you're amazing.
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I’d it a case of when the cards are actually on the table you are outside your comfort zone and panic.. Then fuck it up because you feel so nervous... loads of that on here... the chase is exciting... discussing what you’ll do is intense, and having a huge ego boost is what you need but actually doing it is virtually impossible.? Sometimes people enjoy the chase more than anything else |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did."
That’s just made my eyes fill up |
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"I’m a professional at fucking things up
Good to know
Shut up you  "
Touched a nerve... and just a tip but if you are going to take a pic of toilet paper make sure it’s unused. I know there’s a shortage but really |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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I'm sure if you just explain and tell him he'll understand. If you say he's got his head screwed on and wanted the same as you it's only a message away from putting things right if you mean it.  |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"I’d it a case of when the cards are actually on the table you are outside your comfort zone and panic.. Then fuck it up because you feel so nervous... loads of that on here... the chase is exciting... discussing what you’ll do is intense, and having a huge ego boost is what you need but actually doing it is virtually impossible.? Sometimes people enjoy the chase more than anything else"
No it's not even that deep into it for me. Its the initial stages. My fears creep in early...I'm not good enough etc and I act like a prick |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"I'm sure if you just explain and tell him he'll understand. If you say he's got his head screwed on and wanted the same as you it's only a message away from putting things right if you mean it. "
I do mean it I'm sorry |
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"I’d it a case of when the cards are actually on the table you are outside your comfort zone and panic.. Then fuck it up because you feel so nervous... loads of that on here... the chase is exciting... discussing what you’ll do is intense, and having a huge ego boost is what you need but actually doing it is virtually impossible.? Sometimes people enjoy the chase more than anything else
No it's not even that deep into it for me. Its the initial stages. My fears creep in early...I'm not good enough etc and I act like a prick "
Well don’t then 
Other advice available on request |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did."
Totally get this.. My dad was an alcoholic.. It's made me hard as fuck and very difficult for people to get to know me 'cos i learnt at an early age i can only rely on myself...ever |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"I’d it a case of when the cards are actually on the table you are outside your comfort zone and panic.. Then fuck it up because you feel so nervous... loads of that on here... the chase is exciting... discussing what you’ll do is intense, and having a huge ego boost is what you need but actually doing it is virtually impossible.? Sometimes people enjoy the chase more than anything else
No it's not even that deep into it for me. Its the initial stages. My fears creep in early...I'm not good enough etc and I act like a prick
Well don’t then
Other advice available on request "
Thank you for the advice. I now feel that all of my problems are solved |
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"I’d it a case of when the cards are actually on the table you are outside your comfort zone and panic.. Then fuck it up because you feel so nervous... loads of that on here... the chase is exciting... discussing what you’ll do is intense, and having a huge ego boost is what you need but actually doing it is virtually impossible.? Sometimes people enjoy the chase more than anything else
No it's not even that deep into it for me. Its the initial stages. My fears creep in early...I'm not good enough etc and I act like a prick
Well don’t then
Other advice available on request
Thank you for the advice. I now feel that all of my problems are solved "
You are welcome ... here to help |
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"I'm a bugger for ruining things...I cant help. If something is going well you can guarantee I'll fuck it up. Most of it is out of fear and worry that I'll end up hurt
Is anyone else the same?
Please make me feel less weird and shit haha
Ps sorry to you (you know who you are) for being a dickhead. "
Angel--we've mostly all been there. Sorry! Message if you want consolation (I'll even change my setting for you!). |
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"Please don’t be so hard on yourselves, we all have our reasons but you’re not always to blame. Sometimes we take the Mick out of ourselves that’s just a self protection thing "
It's ok I don't blame myself. I blame you. |
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By *hilloutMan
over a year ago
All over the place! Northwesr, , Southwest |
Do you feel you're overcoming these issues? If the answer is no or unsure perhaps you should take a step back and do your best to address them. It's very unfair for people who would genuinely be interested and fit your criteria. They'd likely interpret it as leading them on or playing mind games and rightly so. |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"Do you feel you're overcoming these issues? If the answer is no or unsure perhaps you should take a step back and do your best to address them. It's very unfair for people who would genuinely be interested and fit your criteria. They'd likely interpret it as leading them on or playing mind games and rightly so. "
They did think I was playing games but luckily my explanation helped. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"But to answer the op yeah I can be prone to some self sabotage and very self critical, but I know I have deep rooted childhood rejection issues. Any slight hint of a rejection transports me back to being a child where my stupid mother used to dress in my best clothes and do my hair nice on a Saturday and tell me my Dad was coming to get me and I’d be waiting in the window and waiting and he never turned up. Even learned to tell me mum not to tell me he was coming but she’d still dress me nice because he’d promised and this time he would turn up, he never did.
Oh my darling! That must have been so hard. No one deserves that.
I know it wont help but I send my love to you xx"
Thanks beaut, Daddy issues is a real thing like! I was coming out the Chinese one night when I was 17 and he was walking towards me and I threw a full pancake roll at his face. Didn’t make me feel any better and I was down a pancake roll.
As for your thing if you’ve done his head in the best advice I can give is to step back. You have to do damage control now. Depending on the severity of your kick off it might be salvageable it might not.
Guys don’t like drama at all, especially in the early stages, they can smell it as well.
Takes a very emotionally strong guy to handle someone with issues, I mean the rewards are amazing. People with ‘issues’ love harder than your normal well adjusted people due to the serotonin levels in the brain being scrambled! Very loyal and protective, generally more filthy with regards to doing things considered taboo and prone to putting other people’s needs before their own.
Any time you act up it’s fear driving you, be interested to know what from your past is having an affect on you today.
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"Do you feel you're overcoming these issues? If the answer is no or unsure perhaps you should take a step back and do your best to address them. It's very unfair for people who would genuinely be interested and fit your criteria. They'd likely interpret it as leading them on or playing mind games and rightly so.
They did think I was playing games but luckily my explanation helped. "
Clear communication involving all parties helps so many things x |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"I'm a bugger for ruining things...I cant help. If something is going well you can guarantee I'll fuck it up. Most of it is out of fear and worry that I'll end up hurt
Is anyone else the same?
Please make me feel less weird and shit haha
Ps sorry to you (you know who you are) for being a dickhead. "
I do this all the time, I deserve to be alone and I only have myself to blame. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Do you feel you're overcoming these issues? If the answer is no or unsure perhaps you should take a step back and do your best to address them. It's very unfair for people who would genuinely be interested and fit your criteria. They'd likely interpret it as leading them on or playing mind games and rightly so.
They did think I was playing games but luckily my explanation helped.
Clear communication involving all parties helps so many things x"
Absolutely, open and honest communication is the only way through.
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
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Oh wow haha |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
Oh wow haha "
All good? Just have to try and stay chilled. Easier to say than do. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"I'm a bugger for ruining things...I cant help. If something is going well you can guarantee I'll fuck it up. Most of it is out of fear and worry that I'll end up hurt
Is anyone else the same?
Please make me feel less weird and shit haha
Ps sorry to you (you know who you are) for being a dickhead. "
Been there and done this, but I’ve just learnt from what I’ve done wrong in the past and not going to do what I did again.
These things happen but we can learn from the lesson and change things.
Or it’ll just eat us all up inside and that’s worse |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
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By (user no longer on site)
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"It's crazy isnt it.
In the fab world I've havent done overly well on meeting the right man/men. Finally one comes along who wants the same, has his head screwed on, knows how to handle my crazy and i just cant help but run off scared
Stupid woman haha "
We didn’t even really get talking! |
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
Oh wow haha "
Always love a happy ending! Good luck you two |
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By (user no longer on site)
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And never live in the past, embrace the future, I’ve done that and now I have the most incredible lady, it just goes to show that fabs can lead to a lot more which is elusive but an amazing outcome
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By (user no longer on site)
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
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That’s so,lovely ...good luck you 2 |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"In a rare expression of honesty. This thread was directed at me. Just so all can see this. I have forgiven Angel-Eyes and have told her i like her a lot.
Hope happy times will follow from now.
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By (user no longer on site)
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Been there. Its a question of this is too good to be true. I dont deserve this. They must have underlying agenda. All equals to not loving myself enough at the time or trust issues. Sometimes they were valid and people were dicks. But sometimes it was just me lashing out my old issues. Which is not fair. Its great if they forgive you and move forward but the pattern can repeat unfortunately and it is our own responsibility to do something about it. I hope you find a way and strength to move past that and let in some happiness and joy without doubts you need to believe you deserve that attention. X |
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"Don't know about self sabotage, as that on some level requires intent to do so, whether consciously or subconsciously.
However I certainly have a knack for making things worse and fucking shit up for myself, usually when intending to do the opposite. "
Sounds just like me, usually by believing something someone tells me so I make decisions based on that then it turns out to be bollocks and I end up screwing my self over |
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By (user no longer on site)
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Would appear that forgiving them only leads to more heartache as they let you back in then hurt you all over again.
Needless to say feelings are now wasted.
Shall endeavour to be a cold hearted bastard. Seems it would be more appreciated!! |
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"Would appear that forgiving them only leads to more heartache as they let you back in then hurt you all over again.
Needless to say feelings are now wasted.
Shall endeavour to be a cold hearted bastard. Seems it would be more appreciated!!"
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By *hilloutMan
over a year ago
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"Would appear that forgiving them only leads to more heartache as they let you back in then hurt you all over again.
Needless to say feelings are now wasted.
Shall endeavour to be a cold hearted bastard. Seems it would be more appreciated!!"
Oh my... no happy ending here it seems. |
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