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It's that time of year again, when beardless blokes grow dodgy looking moustaches, and a moustache emblem on a t-shirt or jumper becomes fashion.
But why do people do it? Do they know the real reason?
Movember is a charity dedicated to men's mental health & suicide prevention. The things we dont talk about, but should.
Our fathers, partners, brothers and friends face a health crisis that isn’t being talked about. Men are dying too young. We can’t afford to stay silent.
1 in 8 men in the UK have experienced a mental health problem
3 out of four 4 suicides are men.
What can we do? Talk. Ask. Listen. Encourage action. Check in.
Yes uk.movember.com is a charity, but I'm not saying you should donate money, this is something we can all do our bit for, simply by talking about it, raising it's awareness, for the people like me who suffer from depression and anxiety, or other mental health problems.
Over the next month I may post some of my own personal experiences, not for the attention or anybodies pity, but to give an insight in to the mind of somebody with mental health problems. We may look normal enough but it is a disability. |
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I've had mild depression for 17yrs, only diagnosed 6yrs ago, had a major breakdown this time 1yr ago, resulting in chronic depression, severe anxiety & a failed suicide attempt, several ups and down since but having a relapse due to the time of year and other circumstances. |
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In 2015,
6,188 suicides were registered in the UK and 451 in the Republic of Ireland.
The highest suicide rate in the UK was for men aged 40–44.
For every 100,000 men in that age group, 15 will commit suicide.
The region with the highest suicide rate is Yorkshire & The Humber. |
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I've been on and off antidepressants the best part of 15 years. I'm someone who will always need them.
Doesn't bother me, my happy pill is just like any other medication to me. |
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As I'm pretty sure most people on here know I suffered a breakdown in May. Men are less likely to talk about their issues let alone admit they are struggling.
It's not a sign of weakness, and talking honestly is actually seriously fucking brave.
Like you Paul, I'd had bouts of mild depression, but this one was a humdinger, I was floored. Never experienced anything so scary in my life.
Talk talk talk. |
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I think it's becoming more known about now that's its now losing its stigma.
Hopeful more guys will lose the suffer in silence mentality, and go see their doctor. It can be treated. It may take a few trys to find the right medication, but it's worth it when you can begin to function again. |
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"As I'm pretty sure most people on here know I suffered a breakdown in May. Men are less likely to talk about their issues let alone admit they are struggling.
It's not a sign of weakness, and talking honestly is actually seriously fucking brave.
Like you Paul, I'd had bouts of mild depression, but this one was a humdinger, I was floored. Never experienced anything so scary in my life.
Talk talk talk. "
Thank you so much for saying that Peachy, it really is terrifying, you're own mind pushing you into an anxiety attack, or feeling so worthless and a drain on others. |
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"As I'm pretty sure most people on here know I suffered a breakdown in May. Men are less likely to talk about their issues let alone admit they are struggling.
It's not a sign of weakness, and talking honestly is actually seriously fucking brave.
Like you Paul, I'd had bouts of mild depression, but this one was a humdinger, I was floored. Never experienced anything so scary in my life.
Talk talk talk.
Thank you so much for saying that Peachy, it really is terrifying, you're own mind pushing you into an anxiety attack, or feeling so worthless and a drain on others."
100%. Then you feel as though you're a burden and don't want to worry people. The truth is, friends, family and even strangers do want to help, they do want to make a difference.
It's almost an impossibility to see it at the time, but I try to reverse roles in my head. I know I'd be the first person offering help and gutted if a friend of mine didn't ask for help if they were struggling.
Our mind almost tricks us into thinking we don't deserve help, or we don't want to bother our friends.
Don't listen to that bit of trickery. I know it's so hard, but it's the illness talking, not our friends/family. |
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"I think it's becoming more known about now that's its now losing its stigma.
Hopeful more guys will lose the suffer in silence mentality, and go see their doctor. It can be treated. It may take a few trys to find the right medication, but it's worth it when you can begin to function again. "
My dad is in his 80's, he's the carer for my mother who has dementia and lives 50yrs in the past, he's outlived both parents and a son, gained and lost grandchildren, and to this day I have never seen him shed a tear, or express any emotion, it's that kind of upbringing that tells you to 'man up' and get on with it, but if you keep bottling everything up at some point it's gonna leak out or explode. Men need to acknowledge their emotions and be comfortable expressing them. |
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"As I'm pretty sure most people on here know I suffered a breakdown in May. Men are less likely to talk about their issues let alone admit they are struggling.
It's not a sign of weakness, and talking honestly is actually seriously fucking brave.
Like you Paul, I'd had bouts of mild depression, but this one was a humdinger, I was floored. Never experienced anything so scary in my life.
Talk talk talk.
Thank you so much for saying that Peachy, it really is terrifying, you're own mind pushing you into an anxiety attack, or feeling so worthless and a drain on others.
100%. Then you feel as though you're a burden and don't want to worry people. The truth is, friends, family and even strangers do want to help, they do want to make a difference.
It's almost an impossibility to see it at the time, but I try to reverse roles in my head. I know I'd be the first person offering help and gutted if a friend of mine didn't ask for help if they were struggling.
Our mind almost tricks us into thinking we don't deserve help, or we don't want to bother our friends.
Don't listen to that bit of trickery. I know it's so hard, but it's the illness talking, not our friends/family."
Exactly, and explained much better than I could have done, thank you  |
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"I think it's becoming more known about now that's its now losing its stigma.
Hopeful more guys will lose the suffer in silence mentality, and go see their doctor. It can be treated. It may take a few trys to find the right medication, but it's worth it when you can begin to function again.
My dad is in his 80's, he's the carer for my mother who has dementia and lives 50yrs in the past, he's outlived both parents and a son, gained and lost grandchildren, and to this day I have never seen him shed a tear, or express any emotion, it's that kind of upbringing that tells you to 'man up' and get on with it, but if you keep bottling everything up at some point it's gonna leak out or explode. Men need to acknowledge their emotions and be comfortable expressing them."
Couldn't agree more.
I've seen the fallout when guys bottle up, until the tipping point. It's fairly scary to see, and upsetting that it's something that could probably have been avoided if they'd just lose that 'men don't show emotion' bullshit. |
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"Movember is marketed round here for cancer charities  "
It came about from prostate and testicular cancer awareness but has spread to encompass mental health too.
Important not to forget the fight against men’s cancers though, you’re right  |
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"Movember is marketed round here for cancer charities "
Online it’s mission is men’s health, prostate cancer, testicular cancer and mental health awareness. Think it’s an all round campaign |
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"Movember is marketed round here for cancer charities
It came about from prostate and testicular cancer awareness but has spread to encompass mental health too.
Important not to forget the fight against men’s cancers though, you’re right "
Oops didn’t refresh before posting, sorry Estella |
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"Movember is marketed round here for cancer charities
It came about from prostate and testicular cancer awareness but has spread to encompass mental health too.
Important not to forget the fight against men’s cancers though, you’re right "
All the more reason to continue supporting it then x |
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A very worthy cause and one I’m personally getting fully involved with this year.
So friends.....
My moustache is in need of your support! Please donate to my #Movember efforts and help me change the face of men’s health.
Unfortunately our ongoing anonymity prevents me from posting a full link to my movember profile but anyone that wishes to donate can do very quickly and simply at the movember website.
Those of our friends or people we’ve met in person are welcome to request my personal link.
Grow a mo, save a bro  |
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men still find it harder to talk about depression and suicidal thoughts and tend to end up being more "successful" when attempting to commit suicide. there is still a lot of stigma around mental health especially in regards to anxiety and depression.
have seen a lot of ptsd lately as well which is always sad to witness. |
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"A very worthy cause and one I’m personally getting fully involved with this year.
So friends.....
My moustache is in need of your support! Please donate to my #Movember efforts and help me change the face of men’s health.
Unfortunately our ongoing anonymity prevents me from posting a full link to my movember profile but anyone that wishes to donate can do very quickly and simply at the movember website.
Those of our friends or people we’ve met in person are welcome to request my personal link.
Grow a mo, save a bro "
Keep up the good work |
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"men still find it harder to talk about depression and suicidal thoughts and tend to end up being more "successful" when attempting to commit suicide. there is still a lot of stigma around mental health especially in regards to anxiety and depression.
have seen a lot of ptsd lately as well which is always sad to witness."
I find talking about my mental health difficult, counselling made me feel worse, I've isolated myself from nearly everybody around me while trying to cope, I have to be in the right frame of mind to talk and feel comfortable with who I'm talking to, saying that most of my talking is done here on fab forums, and realise that the support given to me by complete strangers on here helps and is much appreciated. |
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30 years ago today, I was 14, sat in my art lesson at school, school secretary walked into the classroom and asked that I go with her as my dad had come to pick me up, I had no idea why, I was led to the headmasters office, the head gestured to me to go into his office but he stayed outside the door and closed it, my father was sat there, looking terrible, and broke the news to me that my 24yr old brother, a husband and father of 2 small children, had been in an car accident while a passenger on his way to work, he was killed instantly as the driver of the van he was in overtook a car on a bend doing 55mph in thick fog, straight into the path of a lorry coming the other way.
That was my first real experience of bereavement, something I'll never forget.
My life would have been so very different had he not died.
I still miss you bro  |
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Andy's man club is another charity supporting men's mental health and suicide awareness, they can be found on Facebook, they have local groups men can attend, chat to others in their position and give/receive much needed support in a relaxed non-clinical envenvironment. |
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"Great post paul, I'm not really good at talking about my depression but recognise I'm at the stage where I need to go to the doctors again. X "
It's good that you notice the signs and realise you need help, admitting there is a problem is a big step. Make sure you get an appointment and I wish you the best x |
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"Great post paul, I'm not really good at talking about my depression but recognise I'm at the stage where I need to go to the doctors again. X
It's good that you notice the signs and realise you need help, admitting there is a problem is a big step. Make sure you get an appointment and I wish you the best x"
Thank you x |
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I’m “Wyatt Earp” on stage in December so I had to start growing the moustache at the beginning of October!
I’m usually clean shaven ( as my “look” ) so, although it’s past the really dodgy shitty look stage, I still am not used to the look and feel of having a moustache!!!
I’ll be cutting it straight off when the engagement is finished. |
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"30 years ago today, I was 14, sat in my art lesson at school, school secretary walked into the classroom and asked that I go with her as my dad had come to pick me up, I had no idea why, I was led to the headmasters office, the head gestured to me to go into his office but he stayed outside the door and closed it, my father was sat there, looking terrible, and broke the news to me that my 24yr old brother, a husband and father of 2 small children, had been in an car accident while a passenger on his way to work, he was killed instantly as the driver of the van he was in overtook a car on a bend doing 55mph in thick fog, straight into the path of a lorry coming the other way.
That was my first real experience of bereavement, something I'll never forget.
My life would have been so very different had he not died.
I still miss you bro "
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"30 years ago today, I was 14, sat in my art lesson at school, school secretary walked into the classroom and asked that I go with her as my dad had come to pick me up, I had no idea why, I was led to the headmasters office, the head gestured to me to go into his office but he stayed outside the door and closed it, my father was sat there, looking terrible, and broke the news to me that my 24yr old brother, a husband and father of 2 small children, had been in an car accident while a passenger on his way to work, he was killed instantly as the driver of the van he was in overtook a car on a bend doing 55mph in thick fog, straight into the path of a lorry coming the other way.
That was my first real experience of bereavement, something I'll never forget.
My life would have been so very different had he not died.
I still miss you bro
{{{Hugs}}} "
Thank you _amiss |
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A little insight into my daily anxiety,
Obviously some days are better than others, recently it's been quite bad.
At best I have what I call an inner tremble, at worst it's an uncontrollable shaking of my left hand and arm, occasionally my left leg will join in too.
Holding of breath so have to concentrate on my breathing, sometimes erratic breathing.
Clenching of the jaw and stomach to the point they ache.
Loss of appetite.
Hiding away from the world and everybody in it
Panic, fear & tears
Increased heart rate ranging from 104bpm to 147bmp.
Overthinking and paranoia.
...But I look fine when I do go out  |
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By *amissCouple
over a year ago
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"A little insight into my daily anxiety,
Obviously some days are better than others, recently it's been quite bad.
At best I have what I call an inner tremble, at worst it's an uncontrollable shaking of my left hand and arm, occasionally my left leg will join in too.
Holding of breath so have to concentrate on my breathing, sometimes erratic breathing.
Clenching of the jaw and stomach to the point they ache.
Loss of appetite.
Hiding away from the world and everybody in it
Panic, fear & tears
Increased heart rate ranging from 104bpm to 147bmp.
Overthinking and paranoia.
...But I look fine when I do go out "
Aw, bless you sweet, you need a mahoosive{hug} |
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"A little insight into my daily anxiety,
Obviously some days are better than others, recently it's been quite bad.
At best I have what I call an inner tremble, at worst it's an uncontrollable shaking of my left hand and arm, occasionally my left leg will join in too.
Holding of breath so have to concentrate on my breathing, sometimes erratic breathing.
Clenching of the jaw and stomach to the point they ache.
Loss of appetite.
Hiding away from the world and everybody in it
Panic, fear & tears
Increased heart rate ranging from 104bpm to 147bmp.
Overthinking and paranoia.
...But I look fine when I do go out
Aw, bless you sweet, you need a mahoosive{hug} "
Thank you |
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By *amissCouple
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"A little insight into my daily anxiety,
Obviously some days are better than others, recently it's been quite bad.
At best I have what I call an inner tremble, at worst it's an uncontrollable shaking of my left hand and arm, occasionally my left leg will join in too.
Holding of breath so have to concentrate on my breathing, sometimes erratic breathing.
Clenching of the jaw and stomach to the point they ache.
Loss of appetite.
Hiding away from the world and everybody in it
Panic, fear & tears
Increased heart rate ranging from 104bpm to 147bmp.
Overthinking and paranoia.
...But I look fine when I do go out
Aw, bless you sweet, you need a mahoosive{hug}
Thank you "
You're very welcome |
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I've been on and off SSRIs for about 4 years now. My mum died unexpectedly 5 years ago. At the time and in the months after I felt fine. My daughter was seriously affected by my mum's death, coupled with her autism it hit her really hard.
My daughter tried to commit suicide on 8 occasions and no one would listen to us. I caught her trying to hang herself on 3 occasions. In the end we dropped her at hospital as we couldn't cope, the day after she was sectioned.
This all led to me having a very public melt down at work, full on panic attack and mental breakdown.
This resulted in me having considerable time off work and starting medication to try and get back on track. I found a wonderful mental health nurse who has been my rock for the last 4 years.
I've had a few ups and downs, tried to come off meds all together but failed miserably and had another breakdown.
Still on them at a very low dose and in a good place.
I wish I hadn't done the man thing and stayed quiet and just battled on. I should have got help earlier. |
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"I've been on and off SSRIs for about 4 years now. My mum died unexpectedly 5 years ago. At the time and in the months after I felt fine. My daughter was seriously affected by my mum's death, coupled with her autism it hit her really hard.
My daughter tried to commit suicide on 8 occasions and no one would listen to us. I caught her trying to hang herself on 3 occasions. In the end we dropped her at hospital as we couldn't cope, the day after she was sectioned.
This all led to me having a very public melt down at work, full on panic attack and mental breakdown.
This resulted in me having considerable time off work and starting medication to try and get back on track. I found a wonderful mental health nurse who has been my rock for the last 4 years.
I've had a few ups and downs, tried to come off meds all together but failed miserably and had another breakdown.
Still on them at a very low dose and in a good place.
I wish I hadn't done the man thing and stayed quiet and just battled on. I should have got help earlier."
Gosh, so sorry to hear this. Thank you for sharing and these statements help lots of others on here {{Hugs}} xx |
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough."
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks |
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough.
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks "
And very glad you are, Rachel x |
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"I've been on and off SSRIs for about 4 years now. My mum died unexpectedly 5 years ago. At the time and in the months after I felt fine. My daughter was seriously affected by my mum's death, coupled with her autism it hit her really hard.
My daughter tried to commit suicide on 8 occasions and no one would listen to us. I caught her trying to hang herself on 3 occasions. In the end we dropped her at hospital as we couldn't cope, the day after she was sectioned.
This all led to me having a very public melt down at work, full on panic attack and mental breakdown.
This resulted in me having considerable time off work and starting medication to try and get back on track. I found a wonderful mental health nurse who has been my rock for the last 4 years.
I've had a few ups and downs, tried to come off meds all together but failed miserably and had another breakdown.
Still on them at a very low dose and in a good place.
I wish I hadn't done the man thing and stayed quiet and just battled on. I should have got help earlier."
Thank you for sharing sir, I can empathise to some extent, I spent a few years supporting my step daughter through depression, anxiety, self harm & an overdose attempt. Children's mental health is another thing that needs more awareness of and an improvement of support services, CAHMS are too overloaded to do enough to help these kids who clearly need help.
Well done for getting over it as much as you have done, stay strong |
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After posting my self centred crap I’ve had a good read of your posts folks.
I see your bereavement, ptsd, depression, anxiety. If I could grow a moustache and it would make a difference in some way, I would.
Hugs to you all.
I have found the light at the end of my tunnel. I sincerely hope you do too.  |
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"After posting my self centred crap I’ve had a good read of your posts folks.
I see your bereavement, ptsd, depression, anxiety. If I could grow a moustache and it would make a difference in some way, I would.
Hugs to you all.
I have found the light at the end of my tunnel. I sincerely hope you do too. "
That's lovely. |
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough.
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks "
Thank you for sharing, it's good you feel much better now, was there anything specific that helped you find yourself and move you to get better? |
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"After posting my self centred crap I’ve had a good read of your posts folks.
I see your bereavement, ptsd, depression, anxiety. If I could grow a moustache and it would make a difference in some way, I would.
Hugs to you all.
I have found the light at the end of my tunnel. I sincerely hope you do too. "
It was nice reading your self centred crap! It's good to talk and let it out, it's good for others to read they aren't going through it alone and others have got through it, this thread for me is all about talking about mental health problems and making people aware of how it effects people and how they got better. If 1 person reads this thread and they realise they have a problem and they get help with it, that's 1 life we've saved |
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough.
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks
Thank you for sharing, it's good you feel much better now, was there anything specific that helped you find yourself and move you to get better?"
Accepting who I am. Being honest about it and doing something about it.
I realised that life is way too short to keep things inside and stress over stuff I can’t change.
I found myself alone and thought it was time I discovered myself only to be pulled back into my life. At that point I was, once again, desperate to actually do something about the way I felt but also so wanting my life back so I opened my gob and told my lady.
She changed everything by saying it was ok.
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough.
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks
Thank you for sharing, it's good you feel much better now, was there anything specific that helped you find yourself and move you to get better?
Accepting who I am. Being honest about it and doing something about it.
I realised that life is way too short to keep things inside and stress over stuff I can’t change.
I found myself alone and thought it was time I discovered myself only to be pulled back into my life. At that point I was, once again, desperate to actually do something about the way I felt but also so wanting my life back so I opened my gob and told my lady.
She changed everything by saying it was ok.
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Sounds like your lady has been a massive support for you |
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"After posting my self centred crap I’ve had a good read of your posts folks.
I see your bereavement, ptsd, depression, anxiety. If I could grow a moustache and it would make a difference in some way, I would.
Hugs to you all.
I have found the light at the end of my tunnel. I sincerely hope you do too.
It was nice reading your self centred crap! It's good to talk and let it out, it's good for others to read they aren't going through it alone and others have got through it, this thread for me is all about talking about mental health problems and making people aware of how it effects people and how they got better. If 1 person reads this thread and they realise they have a problem and they get help with it, that's 1 life we've saved "
Then this is an awsome thread.
My best friend lost her daughter by her own hand eight years ago. 23 years old.
She carries that pain every day and if I could take even a bit of it away even if that meant I had to feel what she feels, I would.
Talking about the stuff that hurts so deeply makes a tiny difference. It makes a difference though. Xxx |
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"This thread is beauitful and I'm proud of you all for talking about such personal difficult issues. "
Thank you miss honey
I'm proud of those who have shared too, it shows great strength to be able to open up |
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"Feel free to share your experiences too, if you're feeling strong enough.
Ok.
Suicide in the transgender community runs at just over 50% depending on where you draw your statistics from.
As a transgender woman I’ve had some seriously low points in my life and have been sat with a Stanley knife failing to find the courage I desired.
In a fabulous place now though folks
Thank you for sharing, it's good you feel much better now, was there anything specific that helped you find yourself and move you to get better?
Accepting who I am. Being honest about it and doing something about it.
I realised that life is way too short to keep things inside and stress over stuff I can’t change.
I found myself alone and thought it was time I discovered myself only to be pulled back into my life. At that point I was, once again, desperate to actually do something about the way I felt but also so wanting my life back so I opened my gob and told my lady.
She changed everything by saying it was ok.
Sounds like your lady has been a massive support for you "
She is. She has her own issues too so we’re a good match. |
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"After posting my self centred crap I’ve had a good read of your posts folks.
I see your bereavement, ptsd, depression, anxiety. If I could grow a moustache and it would make a difference in some way, I would.
Hugs to you all.
I have found the light at the end of my tunnel. I sincerely hope you do too.
It was nice reading your self centred crap! It's good to talk and let it out, it's good for others to read they aren't going through it alone and others have got through it, this thread for me is all about talking about mental health problems and making people aware of how it effects people and how they got better. If 1 person reads this thread and they realise they have a problem and they get help with it, that's 1 life we've saved
Then this is an awsome thread.
My best friend lost her daughter by her own hand eight years ago. 23 years old.
She carries that pain every day and if I could take even a bit of it away even if that meant I had to feel what she feels, I would.
Talking about the stuff that hurts so deeply makes a tiny difference. It makes a difference though. Xxx"
Bless her, you sound like A good friend to her.
Having somebody to talk to really does help, whether you're the one talking or listening. |
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"Someone very close to me killed himself in June, if anything can be taken from this was his silence!! No one knew his thoughts or feelings. Xxx"
Hugs xxxx |
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"Someone very close to me killed himself in June, if anything can be taken from this was his silence!! No one knew his thoughts or feelings. Xxx"
Sorry to hear that, so many people are too ashamed to talk and ask for help, not enough people are aware enough to ask if somebody is ok and offer support. Talking saves the lives of men, women and children. |
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I’m going to bed now but if anyone wants to offload, feel free to send your thoughts to me. I’ll read in the morning.
Receptive ear this end that won’t judge or give you hollow sympathetic shite. Just get your shit out and I’ll listen xx |
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3rd of November, another tricky date for me, anniversary of my grandad passing away; and when my first child was born, I only knew her for a couple of months when her mother left me for my best friend and moved out of town and I lost contact, I finally managed to trace her when she was 21 and we met a few times but don't talk very often.
I've had my youngest 2 this afternoon and went to the park with them so they have kept me busy |
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"3rd of November, another tricky date for me, anniversary of my grandad passing away; and when my first child was born, I only knew her for a couple of months when her mother left me for my best friend and moved out of town and I lost contact, I finally managed to trace her when she was 21 and we met a few times but don't talk very often.
I've had my youngest 2 this afternoon and went to the park with them so they have kept me busy "
Just enjoy your 2 little ones. |
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"It's that time of year again, when beardless blokes grow dodgy looking moustaches, and a moustache emblem on a t-shirt or jumper becomes fashion.
But why do people do it? Do they know the real reason?
Movember is a charity dedicated to men's mental health & suicide prevention. The things we dont talk about, but should.
Our fathers, partners, brothers and friends face a health crisis that isn’t being talked about. Men are dying too young. We can’t afford to stay silent.
1 in 8 men in the UK have experienced a mental health problem
3 out of four 4 suicides are men.
What can we do? Talk. Ask. Listen. Encourage action. Check in.
Yes uk.movember.com is a charity, but I'm not saying you should donate money, this is something we can all do our bit for, simply by talking about it, raising it's awareness, for the people like me who suffer from depression and anxiety, or other mental health problems.
Over the next month I may post some of my own personal experiences, not for the attention or anybodies pity, but to give an insight in to the mind of somebody with mental health problems. We may look normal enough but it is a disability."
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"30 years ago today, I was 14, sat in my art lesson at school, school secretary walked into the classroom and asked that I go with her as my dad had come to pick me up, I had no idea why, I was led to the headmasters office, the head gestured to me to go into his office but he stayed outside the door and closed it, my father was sat there, looking terrible, and broke the news to me that my 24yr old brother, a husband and father of 2 small children, had been in an car accident while a passenger on his way to work, he was killed instantly as the driver of the van he was in overtook a car on a bend doing 55mph in thick fog, straight into the path of a lorry coming the other way.
That was my first real experience of bereavement, something I'll never forget.
My life would have been so very different had he not died.
I still miss you bro "
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Looking at the fireworks lighting up the sky and thinking, yep! That's how my head looks with all the random neurons firing.
An exhilarating crescendo of light, colour & sound that fades into nothing. |
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"Looking at the fireworks lighting up the sky and thinking, yep! That's how my head looks with all the random neurons firing.
An exhilarating crescendo of light, colour & sound that fades into nothing."
It's like beirut here  |
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"Looking at the fireworks lighting up the sky and thinking, yep! That's how my head looks with all the random neurons firing.
An exhilarating crescendo of light, colour & sound that fades into nothing.
It's like beirut here "
I know the feeling |
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I wrote this back in march;
An analogy to explain my thoughts.
How do they work?
They repeatedly circle but change slightly with each revolution.
They revolve and evolve at the same time.
Re-evolving
REvolving.
Kind of like my mind is the sun fiercely burning at the centre of the solar system, and everything orbiting it are my thoughts, but on a much smaller and faster scale.
Similar to being in the middle and watching the waltzers go around.
I don't like the waltzers.
I like dodgems.
I'd rather it be like the dodgems, you go around at your own pace and choose what to bump, with the occasional unexpected bump from elsewhere which makes you change what to bump.
Sometimes it's a lot calmer and more serene, like butterflies dancing in the sky.
Butterflies evolve don't they?
Or is it caterpillars?
Caterpillars make cocoons and evolve into Butterflies.
For some reason I thought Butterflies turned into Caterpillars!?
I thought it was their circle of life, butterfly to caterpillar to butterfly.
But then that got me to thinking about when one of them dying and breaking it's circle of life, it can't replace itself so it's population would become extinct.
Clearly not possible, but then I have vague recollection of seeing a mummy caterpillar with its babies in a Disney Pixar movie?
So where do baby Caterpillars come from? Laid by mummy caterpillars?
That's an awful shame for a butterfly, to go through the long complicated process of evolving from a caterpillar into a beautifully delicate butterfly, with no other purpose in its life than to fly around in around mesmerising flight pattern only to swatted by some snotty nosed spawn of Satan who thought it would be fun to catch, kill, dismember and squash one of nature's greatest accomplishments.
I'm drained now, I'd over thought half of that before I'd even started typing it out an hour ago.
Definitely want sleep now...
But I'm hungry, I should eat,
But then I'll want a cig,
If I'm gonna eat then smoke I'm gonna want a coffee.
If I'm doing to do all that then I might as well put a dvd on to watch.
I'll sleep later.... |
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"1 year ago today i wanted to die, I slashed my wrist 3 times but all I managed to do was end my life as I knew it, the wound has healed, but the overwhelming pain is still here "
Paul...{{{Hugs}}} darling. |
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss"
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle |
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle "
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee! |
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee! "
Still trying to bloody filling it |
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over a year ago
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee!
Still trying to bloody filling it "
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee!
Still trying to bloody filling it
Why do they need so much? "
To gauge it over a long period
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over a year ago
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee!
Still trying to bloody filling it
Why do they need so much?
To gauge it over a long period
Not looking forward to standing in the queue to hand it back "
Well you won't get it in the little sandwich bag, they normally give you! Love the avatar btw.xx |
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee!
Still trying to bloody filling it
Why do they need so much?
To gauge it over a long period
Not looking forward to standing in the queue to hand it back
Well you won't get it in the little sandwich bag, they normally give you! Love the avatar btw.xx"
No it will have to go in a Tesco bag for life lol...thanks for that comment on avater xx
Now to use your words...got to go for a wee |
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over a year ago
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"{{{Hugs}}} to you too Mistress!
{{{Hugs}}} to you _amiss
PS you want to see the urine sample bottle I got yesterday....fecking 2 and half litres bottle
Hahaha! Bloody Norah! That's a lot of wee!
Still trying to bloody filling it
Why do they need so much?
To gauge it over a long period
Not looking forward to standing in the queue to hand it back
Well you won't get it in the little sandwich bag, they normally give you! Love the avatar btw.xx
No it will have to go in a Tesco bag for life lol...thanks for that comment on avater xx
Now to use your words...got to go for a wee "
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"1 year ago today i wanted to die, I slashed my wrist 3 times but all I managed to do was end my life as I knew it, the wound has healed, but the overwhelming pain is still here
Paul...{{{Hugs}}} darling. "
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Great post, OP and well done to others for sharing your experiences.
I to have suffered from depression and am in great company. Winston Churchill wrote about his 'Black Dog' and was always wary of standing close to platform edges and other places where he might be tempted to end his depressive state.
Lots of other famous guys have recorded videos telling of their dark times including Peter Andre, all in the name of Movember.
Stay safe guys, and talk to someone if you need to.
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"Great post, OP and well done to others for sharing your experiences.
I to have suffered from depression and am in great company. Winston Churchill wrote about his 'Black Dog' and was always wary of standing close to platform edges and other places where he might be tempted to end his depressive state.
Lots of other famous guys have recorded videos telling of their dark times including Peter Andre, all in the name of Movember.
Stay safe guys, and talk to someone if you need to.
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The “Black Dog” of the night that robs you of your joy, the un-quiet mind that keeps you awake. It’s a noonday demon that only you can see, the darkness visible only to you.
Part of my daily coping over the last year has been Mindfulness, listening to an audio book every night in bed called 'The Mindful Way Through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness', usually the guided meditation by Jon Kabat-Zinn. I find that listening to it (along with a Zopiclone 7.5mg sleeping tablet) calms my mind enough to sleep. It encourages slow controlled breathing and being aware of how your body is with a 'body scan' and recognising when your mind wanders into negative thought. |
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"Great post, OP and well done to others for sharing your experiences.
I to have suffered from depression and am in great company. Winston Churchill wrote about his 'Black Dog' and was always wary of standing close to platform edges and other places where he might be tempted to end his depressive state.
Lots of other famous guys have recorded videos telling of their dark times including Peter Andre, all in the name of Movember.
Stay safe guys, and talk to someone if you need to.
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It's great these famous guys come forward, just goes to show anyone from any walk of life, can be vulnerable. |
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By *amissCouple
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"Great post, OP and well done to others for sharing your experiences.
I to have suffered from depression and am in great company. Winston Churchill wrote about his 'Black Dog' and was always wary of standing close to platform edges and other places where he might be tempted to end his depressive state.
Lots of other famous guys have recorded videos telling of their dark times including Peter Andre, all in the name of Movember.
Stay safe guys, and talk to someone if you need to.
The “Black Dog” of the night that robs you of your joy, the un-quiet mind that keeps you awake. It’s a noonday demon that only you can see, the darkness visible only to you.
Part of my daily coping over the last year has been Mindfulness, listening to an audio book every night in bed called 'The Mindful Way Through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness', usually the guided meditation by Jon Kabat-Zinn. I find that listening to it (along with a Zopiclone 7.5mg sleeping tablet) calms my mind enough to sleep. It encourages slow controlled breathing and being aware of how your body is with a 'body scan' and recognising when your mind wanders into negative thought."
Paul, my sister in law, has some tapes she listens to, she went to a hypnotherapist, when she was diagnosed with terminal cancer. She was very sceptical, but has found this works for her and keeps her focused and positive. |
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"Yesterday was such a struggle for me, but i got through it with only a few minor meltdowns of emotions.
Thank you to those of you who gave me some support "
Morning Paul, hope today's a better day for you. xx |
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Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
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Hope you got your head down mate |
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"I've been on and off SSRIs for about 4 years now. My mum died unexpectedly 5 years ago. At the time and in the months after I felt fine. My daughter was seriously affected by my mum's death, coupled with her autism it hit her really hard.
My daughter tried to commit suicide on 8 occasions and no one would listen to us. I caught her trying to hang herself on 3 occasions. In the end we dropped her at hospital as we couldn't cope, the day after she was sectioned.
This all led to me having a very public melt down at work, full on panic attack and mental breakdown.
This resulted in me having considerable time off work and starting medication to try and get back on track. I found a wonderful mental health nurse who has been my rock for the last 4 years.
I've had a few ups and downs, tried to come off meds all together but failed miserably and had another breakdown.
Still on them at a very low dose and in a good place.
I wish I hadn't done the man thing and stayed quiet and just battled on. I should have got help earlier."
Sharing shows others they are not alone. Ms |
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At some point we all suffer a form of depression- some worse than others,, my parents both died- dad through M.S, mum with cancer, i then became a carer for my disabled brother and sister.while bringing up two young kids. 8 yr ago me and my youngest childs dad separeted( badly), i wanted to throw myself under a train untill my good friend gave me a kick up the arse. I started working with adults with mental health issues and found the best way to make them see people care and are there to support them- was not by saying ' come on everything will be fine' but by having a cuppa and listening, followed by a hug, then a simple 1/2minute phone call just saying ' hi hows your day been',,,it takes 5 minutes to 'listen' - not advise, not criticise, but just listen and can make a persons day much brighter. To all with any kind of mental illnesd- there are people that care, remember you are not alone. X |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate "
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day "
Set alarm and have a power nap when back home if possible |
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"At some point we all suffer a form of depression- some worse than others,, my parents both died- dad through M.S, mum with cancer, i then became a carer for my disabled brother and sister.while bringing up two young kids. 8 yr ago me and my youngest childs dad separeted( badly), i wanted to throw myself under a train untill my good friend gave me a kick up the arse. I started working with adults with mental health issues and found the best way to make them see people care and are there to support them- was not by saying ' come on everything will be fine' but by having a cuppa and listening, followed by a hug, then a simple 1/2minute phone call just saying ' hi hows your day been',,,it takes 5 minutes to 'listen' - not advise, not criticise, but just listen and can make a persons day much brighter. To all with any kind of mental illnesd- there are people that care, remember you are not alone. X "
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day "
Take care buddy |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day "
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Set alarm and have a power nap when back home if possible "
I've got the youngest till half 12 when she goes to nursery, pick them both up at half 3. Doubt I'd sleep if I tried. |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Take care buddy "
Thanks sam, you too
I'm ok at the moment. Situation isn't over yet, whatever happens I can see some changes coming in my personal life, some I'm trying not to think about, others I'm thinking positive about. |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx"
Thank you _amiss |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx
Thank you _amiss "
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx
Thank you _amiss
You're welcome, Paul, anytime. xx"
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx
Thank you _amiss
You're welcome, Paul, anytime. xx
Go on I'll join in for another fecker "
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
Hope you got your head down mate
Got my head down but no sleep, gotta pick to 2 kids up now and take eldest to school. It's gonna be a long day
Big{{{hugs}}} Paul xx
Thank you _amiss
You're welcome, Paul, anytime. xx
Go on I'll join in for another fecker
Group hug?"
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By *amissCouple
over a year ago
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"How are you Mistress?
Up and down but on the whole I'm pretty good x
Ah, bless you darling.
How's yourself _amiss?"
Not great. Had medication increased today for thyroid and I have gut infection back, so feeling a bit s***. Feel like a bit of a wuss at the moment.  |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
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This is no longer about me, I must now use my inner strength to support those who have had a sudden and devastating loss of a loved one. |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
This is no longer about me, I must now use my inner strength to support those who have had a sudden and devastating loss of a loved one."
Hugs mate stay safe and be strong {{{hugs}}} |
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"Total freak out!!!
2 hours ago I was put in an emergency situation, and had to speak face to face with my ex (my biggest fear) in her home (former family home) adrenaline kicked in and I was calm for the most part, then anxiety kicked back in until I left, then there was a brief moment if shock before I had a major panic attack, diazi, sleeper & inhaler when I got home, once I'd stopped shaking enough I wrote this.
4.20am... I need sleep!
This is no longer about me, I must now use my inner strength to support those who have had a sudden and devastating loss of a loved one.
Hugs mate stay safe and be strong {{{hugs}}}"
All things considered, she's my wife & i have a duty and an obligation to honour. And for our kids |
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