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over a year ago
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Sorry this isn't about wanking!
So on the back of the SSBBW thread I got a few messages saying just ignore the trolls etc and while it was appreciated its not necessary because everyone can have their opinion and I think the only person who can judge me is me.
Im happy with who I am, yeah id like to be thinner but unfortunately the medication that makes me this way also keeps me alive. I was close to death in my late teens, I think it gave me a new perspective and I embrace life and what it can be.
I strive to be a good person and to make the most of what i have-at my biggest i was a SSBBW model and camgirl. I used what I had to my advantage.
So my question is do you embrace who you are? Are you happy with the person you are and if not why dont you change it? |
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Yes I'm happy with me and dont want to change it.
I'm 42 almost and can't change who I am and I can't apologise to those who don't like me. There's hardly any so it's not a problem.
I'm talking about the real world |
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Not at all, I try to do the best I can and share my experiences with others so hopefully they can learn an insight into other people. I'm way too caring and get hurt easily. I'm one of the most self critical people you could ever meet due to an upbringing where nothing I did was ever good enough no matter how hard I tried.
I was in a mentally and physically abusive relationship for a very long time and that has affected me more than I like to admit, yet I do admit it because I don't want other people suffering the way I do.
I wear my heart on my sleeve and people take advantage of it.
I try my best to be a good person and continually put others before myself.
All I really want is to be loved by someone who won't take me for granted or treat me like shit.
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Ok, well when I was growing up I was always the slightly bigger kid, nowadays I look back and think I wasn't big at all just was how I was made to feel. I got married to a man who was a feeder and mentally abusive and controlling. I got to SSBBW and wasn't happy. I did decide to do something about it. I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago, my ex didn't like the fact I was losing weight and give him yet another excuse to cheat on me. I'm still a work in progress now, I've stalled and know I'm making bad food choices but will chase the demons away again. I am what I am, no one can criticise me as much as I do myself. I don't like myself yet but I'm learning that I'm worth more than I thought x |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
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"Not at all, I try to do the best I can and share my experiences with others so hopefully they can learn an insight into other people. I'm way too caring and get hurt easily. I'm one of the most self critical people you could ever meet due to an upbringing where nothing I did was ever good enough no matter how hard I tried.
I was in a mentally and physically abusive relationship for a very long time and that has affected me more than I like to admit, yet I do admit it because I don't want other people suffering the way I do.
I wear my heart on my sleeve and people take advantage of it.
I try my best to be a good person and continually put others before myself.
All I really want is to be loved by someone who won't take me for granted or treat me like shit.
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Hey. I don't know you but i do see what you post on here and you definitely come across as a good person.
You've come through so much and should be proud of who you are. Your honesty and openess are endearing qualities and while they may be misinterpreted that's how life is. We all see things differently and take offense where its not intended sometimes.
Just keep being you x |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"I'm sure you are a very lovely and attractive person, but I urge you to reconsider, I'm very disappointed that this isn't about wanking.   
Ok just for you, knock yourself out  "
Oh bless you,thank you.
There's nothing as inclusive as a wank, everybody can do it, never rejected myself once. |
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"Ok, well when I was growing up I was always the slightly bigger kid, nowadays I look back and think I wasn't big at all just was how I was made to feel. I got married to a man who was a feeder and mentally abusive and controlling. I got to SSBBW and wasn't happy. I did decide to do something about it. I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago, my ex didn't like the fact I was losing weight and give him yet another excuse to cheat on me. I'm still a work in progress now, I've stalled and know I'm making bad food choices but will chase the demons away again. I am what I am, no one can criticise me as much as I do myself. I don't like myself yet but I'm learning that I'm worth more than I thought x "
The fact you made the decision to change and took such drastic action shows what a strong person you are. X |
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"Ok, well when I was growing up I was always the slightly bigger kid, nowadays I look back and think I wasn't big at all just was how I was made to feel. I got married to a man who was a feeder and mentally abusive and controlling. I got to SSBBW and wasn't happy. I did decide to do something about it. I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago, my ex didn't like the fact I was losing weight and give him yet another excuse to cheat on me. I'm still a work in progress now, I've stalled and know I'm making bad food choices but will chase the demons away again. I am what I am, no one can criticise me as much as I do myself. I don't like myself yet but I'm learning that I'm worth more than I thought x "
Your lovely to me Angie anyway always so nice on one of the other threads... |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Ok, well when I was growing up I was always the slightly bigger kid, nowadays I look back and think I wasn't big at all just was how I was made to feel. I got married to a man who was a feeder and mentally abusive and controlling. I got to SSBBW and wasn't happy. I did decide to do something about it. I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago, my ex didn't like the fact I was losing weight and give him yet another excuse to cheat on me. I'm still a work in progress now, I've stalled and know I'm making bad food choices but will chase the demons away again. I am what I am, no one can criticise me as much as I do myself. I don't like myself yet but I'm learning that I'm worth more than I thought x
The fact you made the decision to change and took such drastic action shows what a strong person you are. X"
Yes, stronger than I realised. Thank you x |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Ok, well when I was growing up I was always the slightly bigger kid, nowadays I look back and think I wasn't big at all just was how I was made to feel. I got married to a man who was a feeder and mentally abusive and controlling. I got to SSBBW and wasn't happy. I did decide to do something about it. I had gastric bypass surgery 3 years ago, my ex didn't like the fact I was losing weight and give him yet another excuse to cheat on me. I'm still a work in progress now, I've stalled and know I'm making bad food choices but will chase the demons away again. I am what I am, no one can criticise me as much as I do myself. I don't like myself yet but I'm learning that I'm worth more than I thought x
Your lovely to me Angie anyway always so nice on one of the other threads..."
As you are always nice to me x |
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I learned to l myself, I always yoyo with my weight and I've accepted that. I could maintain a balanced diet if I wanted to, but I don't because I enjoy food and get peckish now and then. So I embrace my body when small or bigger, I'm who I am for me, no one else and if others don't like it then it's no skin off my nose.
On occasions id like to change my relationship status, but then I go visit those that are couples and my mind soon changes |
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