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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Ha, spent most of my life feeling that way! !  "
Me too, to an extent but it's not bothered me much for a long time. In many ways I embrace the fact I don't fit in.
Today I feel antsy and strange. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Oh yeah. I know that feeling. Wrong house...wrong job...usually I start looking at holiday brochures!
I used to get it as a kid and convinced myself I was adopted. |
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Ha, spent most of my life feeling that way! !
Me too, to an extent but it's not bothered me much for a long time. In many ways I embrace the fact I don't fit in.
Today I feel antsy and strange."
Go away and do something fun. Watch the rugby, have a few bottles,pick up a 'nilla guy and scare the shit out of him.
Sit in a Library and make eyes at young guys. 
Who knows, but if a shoe isn't fitting because your foot is swollen, put on other shoes. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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was like that last night. going for a run with my dog and lots of people saying hello and smiling made me feel better.
for every down there is an up so to speak |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Oh yeah. I know that feeling. Wrong house...wrong job...usually I start looking at holiday brochures!
I used to get it as a kid and convinced myself I was adopted."
my cousin was adopted - everybody else in the family has dark hair only her and myself had blonde hair and me and her were really close - i used to have it in my head we were really sisters and they had kept us together sort of by putting me with her dads brother - my mum couldnt have more kids - oh it all seemed to make perfect sense back then  |
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Do something different today."
That might be the problem. I've a major piece of work due in in a few days and I've lived it and breathed it for a couple of weeks. I can't ease off or I won't finish.
I'm going to schedule an hour or two to do something completely different today and forget about it. I may head to the coast and see if it blows some cobwebs out.
I've not been to the coast since Lickety was here. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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I've always felt different, like I was born in the wrong time period, or maybe even on the wrong planet. I just don't "fit" anywhere. You'd likely never realize this if you spent any amount of time with me, but it's true or maybe it's something we all have a need for acceptance. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
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Strangely enough, I know how you feel. I have days where I am happy and full of hope for the future, and some as you describe. You feel in a rut, like there is no direction to your life ? |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
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I imagine its not full blown depression, as this is something I never want to experience, but I think its probably how full depression begins. I suppose there are varying levels. Most of us snap out of it. Winston Churchill suffered in such a way. Called it his "black dog". With him, I believe it was more like a stewing feeling of helplessness and feelings of under achievement. |
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
I imagine its not full blown depression, as this is something I never want to experience, but I think its probably how full depression begins. I suppose there are varying levels. Most of us snap out of it. Winston Churchill suffered in such a way. Called it his "black dog". With him, I believe it was more like a stewing feeling of helplessness and feelings of under achievement."
It's not depression. I don't feel unhappy, gloomy or hopeless. It's more antsy, like I want to run, in any direction and not stop. I'm agitated. Nothing feels right.
It's more the beginning of hypomania than depression. Or anxiety. Or ... I don't know.
Odd. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
I imagine its not full blown depression, as this is something I never want to experience, but I think its probably how full depression begins. I suppose there are varying levels. Most of us snap out of it. Winston Churchill suffered in such a way. Called it his "black dog". With him, I believe it was more like a stewing feeling of helplessness and feelings of under achievement.
It's not depression. I don't feel unhappy, gloomy or hopeless. It's more antsy, like I want to run, in any direction and not stop. I'm agitated. Nothing feels right.
It's more the beginning of hypomania than depression. Or anxiety. Or ... I don't know.
Odd."
I know what you mean , you feel fidgety and it's difficult to settle. I get like that sometimes , like a butterfly , flitting from one thing to another.
I think your plan to go to the coast and blow the cobwebs away sounds a good one ! |
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Nothing feels quite right.
I'm probably tired and my diet has been crap lately. I expect I'll be back to normal (whatever that is) tomorrow.
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All the bloody time. Stress cos too busy, then when I do nothing I feel guilty cos I should be doing something, or I'm bored cos I'm doing nothing! Can't win with myself.
Hope you feel more like yourself soon! |
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Hope your antsy mood has lifted and your weekend is looking brighter x"
The rugby distracted me if not cured me.
I wasn't supposed to be watching. I swore I wouldn't let it distract me.
Now to see if I can settle back down and do some work. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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I often wonder what the fuck I'm doing as I'm tied down and mistress starts to warm my ass. I know it won't be stopping in a hurry and it's going to hurt like hell.
Until the next time and I wonder what the fuck I'm doing....  |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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"Ever have them? On here or elsewhere.
I'm in a strange mood today. I feel like I don't fit into the world properly somehow. I can't explain it.
Ha, spent most of my life feeling that way! ! "
Ditto  |
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I'm quite into psychology and it is a known pattern of some kind, can't find the reference now.
I can be the life and soul of the party, I have the chutzpah, but being an 'impartial observer' also comes really naturally to me, and sometimes I prefer it. |
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By *icketysplitsWoman
over a year ago
Way over Yonder, that's where I'm bound |
You enjoyed the rugby but I think you need to get outside and get physical before settling down to more of the work.
Feel better soon and I'll try and get you out to the coast again when I can. |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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Its normal for me to feel unsettled.
So I know what you mean about wanting to run.
Suddenly, without warning, things are about to change for me.. In a good way.
That in itself unsettles me! Arghhh.
Take some time for you, not work, or house.. Indulge. |
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By (user no longer on site)
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"Hope your antsy mood has lifted and your weekend is looking brighter x
The rugby distracted me if not cured me.
I wasn't supposed to be watching. I swore I wouldn't let it distract me.
Now to see if I can settle back down and do some work."
this --- this might be why you feel so hemmed in - you sound like you not allowing yourself time off from the task in hand - then feel bad and beat yourself up when you stray - maybe if you set time away from it for example - right i will work til 2 - stop have a food and drink watch the rugby break then back to it - then it becomes part of what you have set yourself to do and succeeded - probably not worded that too well but hope you get the gist xx and hope today is better |
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Is the coast an option for you? The sea always helps calm me, I find it incredibly soothing if I'm anxious."
Yes, I'm not far from some really pretty sections of coast. I may take my camera. I've got an inherited one to learn to use.
It was cold yesterday and I got distracted by the rugby but some time by the sea today or tomorrow is on the cards. |
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"Do something different today.
That might be the problem. I've a major piece of work due in in a few days and I've lived it and breathed it for a couple of weeks. I can't ease off or I won't finish.
I'm going to schedule an hour or two to do something completely different today and forget about it. I may head to the coast and see if it blows some cobwebs out.
I've not been to the coast since Lickety was here."
So did you do it ? |
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By *ee Viante OP Woman
over a year ago
Somewhere in North Norfolk |
"Do something different today.
That might be the problem. I've a major piece of work due in in a few days and I've lived it and breathed it for a couple of weeks. I can't ease off or I won't finish.
I'm going to schedule an hour or two to do something completely different today and forget about it. I may head to the coast and see if it blows some cobwebs out.
I've not been to the coast since Lickety was here.
So did you do it ?"
I got a bit distracted by the rugby, but that actually did the trick in taking my mind off things and calming me down. |
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