Maren,
My "project" is exploring how hitherto spiritual themes (reincarnation, metempsychosis, karma, akashic records, plenty more) can be more fully grasped using something called holography, which nestles (uncomfortably) within quantum theory/paradox/philosophy.
I'm an atheist and a materialist, some form of Marxist/communist 200 years on from the basic/poor "first draft of Marx", but also psychic.
Precognition, chats with the dead etc.
So the materialist (non-spiritual, but still beyond reductive science's arrogance) attempt at explaining this gets highly technical. So not here, today, for you.
However, on a purely therapeutic level, it may not be your future life that's the concern, but potentially your past lives.
If you haven't read "Many Lives, Many Masters" I'd suggest you buy it soon.
Dr Brian Weiss was a no-frills career focused psychiatrist until he analysed someone who (short version) was only unwell because of past lives.
Weiss eventually became too spiritual for my liking, when materialism can now "touch" these themes, but it's a bloody good book.
If you get it, and it touches a resonant nerve, I'd then strongly advise you to seek out a past-life therapist if you can/if you can afford it.
Time is not limited to one direction (most modern physics is comfortable with that theory, although not yet mature enough experimentally).
As time is not limited to one direction, neither is information, consciousness, or identity.
So a good past-life therapist could help you see "blockages" from past and future.
Ultimately, both gender, sex, and human-ness are just stages in an ever-evolving information field (probably, according to a few theories that are gaining traction).
For your wellbeing though, read that book, and if it touches the right nerves, find a good past-life therapist.
I hope one day we'll have "future-life" therapists - both the psychoanalyst Carl Jung and quantum physicist Wolfgang Pauli were heading in that direction.
I hope this gives you something you haven't considered before, and something that helps you find your centre more fully.
It did for Brian Weiss's client.
Significantly.
Good luck!
Nick x |