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By *assy69Man
over a year ago
West Sussex and Wales |
"I was having a conversation about this recently, the desire to really live after a health scare. How it changes you.
Do you show people they're important to you when they are? Are you able to do what's important to you? What really matters to you?
That last one is deliberately open. They're all kind of open to interpretation.:D"
Have had two health scares in my life …….
First was, quite literally, life changing in all sorts of ways and recovery was several years ……. During that time I went back to uni and left again after completing a couple of delegates that allowed me to change my whole career in my late 30s….. am still in that career and still loving it
Second scare was more recent, and after I’d come back to England…… in a dead end job simply because I’d finished my training in another country, but, after this near death experience I jacked it in, took a plunge and applied to a firm here in England to do what I had been doing before……, they took on board that my training was not here, but my skill sets across different countries meant that they wanted me, and am still there today
Do I appreciate people more? I think no, I have realised that I like my own company and find people and crowds overwhelming, I pushed those close to me away, and those broken relationships still have not been able to heal
What really matters now…… taking each day as it comes, enjoying it, living it (after all, it may be the last one and, at my age, I am definitely a lot closer to my inevitable meeting with the grim reaper). I am now actively doing things that please me, that I have avoided my whole life because society generally considers them inappropriate, perverted, unwise, reckless etc etc.
There are bad days, dark days but, on the whole, am loving life on a way that I haven’t previously  |