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"I've thought about this actually. I want someone in my life that I can cuddle up to and hold hands with etc., I just don't want the expectation that every kiss will turn into sex. I still find people attractive so I don't think I'm completely asexual. It's very confusing! " advertise for cuddle buddy only and go from there | |||
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"Definitely not normal and I'd say what you want wouldn't be fair to your partner. Better of staying single and not having sex that way " | |||
"I've thought about this actually. I want someone in my life that I can cuddle up to and hold hands with etc., I just don't want the expectation that every kiss will turn into sex. I still find people attractive so I don't think I'm completely asexual. It's very confusing! " It's a spectrum. There's good info online.
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"I used to be pretty wild and was quite experimental in the past. I'm ashamed of that. Now it's gotten to the point where I hate when people talk to me about sex. I don't want to know what turns them on. I want a real relationship, just without the expectation of daily/weekly/monthly sex. Not normal, right? " I'm exactly the same I tend to stay away from men now partly because of this and partly for other reasons  | |||
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"Definitely not normal and I'd say what you want wouldn't be fair to your partner. Better of staying single and not having sex that way
"Agree, how dare a woman not want sex every five minutes  | |||
"Definitely not normal and I'd say what you want wouldn't be fair to your partner. Better of staying single and not having sex that way "Wowzers | |||
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"I've thought about this actually. I want someone in my life that I can cuddle up to and hold hands with etc., I just don't want the expectation that every kiss will turn into sex. I still find people attractive so I don't think I'm completely asexual. It's very confusing! " It is not confusing. I hear you. I am the same. Although I never used to have much sex anyway. You are probably at the stage of your life where you want different things. Nothing wrong with that at all. Please don’t think that something is wrong with you Because it isn’t. I would rather prefer to wait for a meaningful kiss then have a wild sex with someone. | |||
"Normal is something you are comfortable and makes you happy. Everyone changes throughout their life in all sorts of ways. You probably dislike foods you didn't a few years ago and you won't be embarrassed about that. "  | |||
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"My issue is your description 'expected to have sex' If you interpret every bit of intimacy you recieve from your partner as them 'expecting' sex rather than then simply enjoying sharing an intimate moment with you you will end up turning down every single little bit of intimacy. From personal experience that is heart breaking to be on the receiving end of. I'd suggest that if you want a normal relationship you find a way to break the connection between intimacy and sex because every time a man shows you intimacy it isn't an expectation sex. Expecting a partner to be physically tactile with you and give cuddles and snuggles but treat every act of intimacy as a demand for sex it utterly unfair. This exact behaviour resulted in me having a breakdown and walking away from my marriage. 6 years on and just reading your post brought back floods of bad memories. Please deal with your issues before you expect someone else to take them on. Mr" This is extremely tough on both sides of the fence. My male long term partner purposly put himself on the sofa for 18mths before we split. Any engagement on my part was very strongly rebuffed. We'd do some kind of weird ' cousin kiss' on a really good day
I just felt beyond empty, crushed so much of the time. And I'd asked if it was me? Offered we went to counselling? Tried to talk it out? No 'bitching', no fighting... Just basically living completely seperate lives. It was such a relief when he left. And I frankly felt quite ashamed to say he'd lost all sexual interests in me... Because they say that's its only a 'woman getting bored?' 
But... If you're not feeling 'it', with either your partner, nor prospective one's. Then you can't stir an urge where there isn't one | |||
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"My issue is your description 'expected to have sex' If you interpret every bit of intimacy you recieve from your partner as them 'expecting' sex rather than then simply enjoying sharing an intimate moment with you you will end up turning down every single little bit of intimacy. From personal experience that is heart breaking to be on the receiving end of. I'd suggest that if you want a normal relationship you find a way to break the connection between intimacy and sex because every time a man shows you intimacy it isn't an expectation sex. Expecting a partner to be physically tactile with you and give cuddles and snuggles but treat every act of intimacy as a demand for sex it utterly unfair. This exact behaviour resulted in me having a breakdown and walking away from my marriage. 6 years on and just reading your post brought back floods of bad memories. Please deal with your issues before you expect someone else to take them on. Mr This is extremely tough on both sides of the fence. My male long term partner purposly put himself on the sofa for 18mths before we split. Any engagement on my part was very strongly rebuffed. We'd do some kind of weird ' cousin kiss' on a really good day
I just felt beyond empty, crushed so much of the time. And I'd asked if it was me? Offered we went to counselling? Tried to talk it out? No 'bitching', no fighting... Just basically living completely seperate lives. It was such a relief when he left. And I frankly felt quite ashamed to say he'd lost all sexual interests in me... Because they say that's its only a 'woman getting bored?'
But... If you're not feeling 'it', with either your partner, nor prospective one's. Then you can't stir an urge where there isn't one "For me there is a big difference between not wanting sex - no one is entitled to have sex with you - and seeing intimacy as a sign sex is expected. Intimacy is what makes the physical connections of a romantic relationship different to any other. We hug our dogs, kiss our mums, hold hands with our children. It's only our partners that we give their bums a cheeky squeeze or slide a hand inside a loose bit of clothing whilst hugging. It's only our partners whose neck we nuzzle, whose throat we nibble. I'd suggest if the OP wants hugs but considers any intimacy as an expectation of receiving more she gets herself a dog - though tbf even they're puzzled if they try to nuzzle up for some attention and you either outright blank them or push them away. Mr | |||
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"My issue is your description 'expected to have sex' If you interpret every bit of intimacy you recieve from your partner as them 'expecting' sex rather than then simply enjoying sharing an intimate moment with you you will end up turning down every single little bit of intimacy. From personal experience that is heart breaking to be on the receiving end of. I'd suggest that if you want a normal relationship you find a way to break the connection between intimacy and sex because every time a man shows you intimacy it isn't an expectation sex. Expecting a partner to be physically tactile with you and give cuddles and snuggles but treat every act of intimacy as a demand for sex it utterly unfair. This exact behaviour resulted in me having a breakdown and walking away from my marriage. 6 years on and just reading your post brought back floods of bad memories. Please deal with your issues before you expect someone else to take them on. Mr This is extremely tough on both sides of the fence. My male long term partner purposly put himself on the sofa for 18mths before we split. Any engagement on my part was very strongly rebuffed. We'd do some kind of weird ' cousin kiss' on a really good day
I just felt beyond empty, crushed so much of the time. And I'd asked if it was me? Offered we went to counselling? Tried to talk it out? No 'bitching', no fighting... Just basically living completely seperate lives. It was such a relief when he left. And I frankly felt quite ashamed to say he'd lost all sexual interests in me... Because they say that's its only a 'woman getting bored?'
But... If you're not feeling 'it', with either your partner, nor prospective one's. Then you can't stir an urge where there isn't one
For me there is a big difference between not wanting sex - no one is entitled to have sex with you - and seeing intimacy as a sign sex is expected. Intimacy is what makes the physical connections of a romantic relationship different to any other. We hug our dogs, kiss our mums, hold hands with our children. It's only our partners that we give their bums a cheeky squeeze or slide a hand inside a loose bit of clothing whilst hugging. It's only our partners whose neck we nuzzle, whose throat we nibble. I'd suggest if the OP wants hugs but considers any intimacy as an expectation of receiving more she gets herself a dog - though tbf even they're puzzled if they try to nuzzle up for some attention and you either outright blank them or push them away.
Mr"To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much  | |||
"My issue is your description 'expected to have sex' If you interpret every bit of intimacy you recieve from your partner as them 'expecting' sex rather than then simply enjoying sharing an intimate moment with you you will end up turning down every single little bit of intimacy. From personal experience that is heart breaking to be on the receiving end of. I'd suggest that if you want a normal relationship you find a way to break the connection between intimacy and sex because every time a man shows you intimacy it isn't an expectation sex. Expecting a partner to be physically tactile with you and give cuddles and snuggles but treat every act of intimacy as a demand for sex it utterly unfair. This exact behaviour resulted in me having a breakdown and walking away from my marriage. 6 years on and just reading your post brought back floods of bad memories. Please deal with your issues before you expect someone else to take them on. Mr This is extremely tough on both sides of the fence. My male long term partner purposly put himself on the sofa for 18mths before we split. Any engagement on my part was very strongly rebuffed. We'd do some kind of weird ' cousin kiss' on a really good day
I just felt beyond empty, crushed so much of the time. And I'd asked if it was me? Offered we went to counselling? Tried to talk it out? No 'bitching', no fighting... Just basically living completely seperate lives. It was such a relief when he left. And I frankly felt quite ashamed to say he'd lost all sexual interests in me... Because they say that's its only a 'woman getting bored?'
But... If you're not feeling 'it', with either your partner, nor prospective one's. Then you can't stir an urge where there isn't one
For me there is a big difference between not wanting sex - no one is entitled to have sex with you - and seeing intimacy as a sign sex is expected. Intimacy is what makes the physical connections of a romantic relationship different to any other. We hug our dogs, kiss our mums, hold hands with our children. It's only our partners that we give their bums a cheeky squeeze or slide a hand inside a loose bit of clothing whilst hugging. It's only our partners whose neck we nuzzle, whose throat we nibble. I'd suggest if the OP wants hugs but considers any intimacy as an expectation of receiving more she gets herself a dog - though tbf even they're puzzled if they try to nuzzle up for some attention and you either outright blank them or push them away.
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"I understand the need for intimacy from my partner. I agree that it is important and how being denied it, even unintentionally, is soul destroying. In my case, I didn't match my partner's sexual appetite and no matter how much else I tried to compensate for it, it didn't stop her sating herself with others, which destroyed our intimacy and everything else in the relationship and in turn, I became a shell of a man. Sometimes, intimacy isn't enough when there is mismatched sexual appetite. It's a matter of finding someone with a matching need for intimacy and sexual appetite perhaps, I don't know. For me, I avoid relationships because I can't face the loss of intimacy because I can't fulfil their sexual need again. | |||
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" For me there is a big difference between not wanting sex - no one is entitled to have sex with you - and seeing intimacy as a sign sex is expected. Intimacy is what makes the physical connections of a romantic relationship different to any other. We hug our dogs, kiss our mums, hold hands with our children. It's only our partners that we give their bums a cheeky squeeze or slide a hand inside a loose bit of clothing whilst hugging. It's only our partners whose neck we nuzzle, whose throat we nibble. I'd suggest if the OP wants hugs but considers any intimacy as an expectation of receiving more she gets herself a dog - though tbf even they're puzzled if they try to nuzzle up for some attention and you either outright blank them or push them away. Mr To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much "1NorthernDelight, I agree. I don't think the OP is saying she would deny her partner any intimacy. I think she longs to be intimate but doesn't feel the desire to have it lead to sex as an expectation or outcome of it every time, which is perhaps her experience of it. | |||
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" To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much
1NorthernDelight, I agree. I don't think the OP is saying she would deny her partner any intimacy. I think she longs to be intimate but doesn't feel the desire to have it lead to sex as an expectation or outcome of it every time, which is perhaps her experience of it."I am probably not responding to this in the best way, it has triggered a massive emotional reaction in me, a night of bad dreams, crying my eyes out getting ready for work this morning, suicidal thoughts trying to creep back in and this is 5 years on - (no need to worry, it's reading now, I've just pulled the van over to get these thoughts down) Totally agree, there is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that doesn't contain sex (though I believe this needs to be made very clear from the outset and needs to be mutual and consistent, ie, not a case of I can expect it when I am horny but don't you dare come near me any other time) What upset me was the OP's second post and the wording 'expectation that every kiss will turn into sex'. This again is very likely me reading my own situation into her words but to me, a relationship where you are second guessing your partners intentions every time they show intimacy is deeply unhealthy. If, when you're kissing your partner, you have a part of your brain that's assessing the kiss to decide if it is platonic enough or carries the risk of arousing him too much your relationship is fundamentally flawed. Kisses are for sharing and enjoying for whatever they are and whatever they develop into - not for one partner to be policing to control the "correct" level of intimacy. To give a bit of background, in my marriage, unlike your description, my wife didn't want to keep away from me, we were very affectionate, we even had sex about once a week. The issue was that outside of the occasions she wanted sex, intimacy was forbidden. Any kiss that lingered too much was physically pushed away, hands would be lifted/ pushed off. A sleepy wandering hand that went to cup a boob for example while cuddling would get a huff and a tut and a full body roll away. The next night though, if she wanted sex I was expected to respond appropriately. In the end, I would just pretend to be asleep when I knew she was after an orgasm. A relationship without sex is perfectly fine but without intimacy isn't healthy to my mind. One where one partner attributes expectations to their partners behaviours that may or may not be there and where that partner reacts to assumed motives is definitely abusive. Mr | |||
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"My desire for sex has been at an all time low this last year or so. Don’t get me wrong I love it once into it but the actual desire / need for it thst I used to have is most definitely not there. I’ve been in HRT since end of last year hoping that would make an improvement but I don’t really think it has. I genuinely think it’s because I don’t feel as sexy in myself like I once did. I know from the outside people would find that hard to believe but I’m actually really not that confident at all and still suffer from years of being in a verbally abusive relationship thst I escaped from 10 years ago And that’s not a ‘please praise me’ reply before I get jumped on lol. That’s from the heart "  | |||
" To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much
1NorthernDelight, I agree. I don't think the OP is saying she would deny her partner any intimacy. I think she longs to be intimate but doesn't feel the desire to have it lead to sex as an expectation or outcome of it every time, which is perhaps her experience of it.
I am probably not responding to this in the best way, it has triggered a massive emotional reaction in me, a night of bad dreams, crying my eyes out getting ready for work this morning, suicidal thoughts trying to creep back in and this is 5 years on - (no need to worry, it's reading now, I've just pulled the van over to get these thoughts down)
Totally agree, there is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that doesn't contain sex (though I believe this needs to be made very clear from the outset and needs to be mutual and consistent, ie, not a case of I can expect it when I am horny but don't you dare come near me any other time)
What upset me was the OP's second post and the wording 'expectation that every kiss will turn into sex'. This again is very likely me reading my own situation into her words but to me, a relationship where you are second guessing your partners intentions every time they show intimacy is deeply unhealthy. If, when you're kissing your partner, you have a part of your brain that's assessing the kiss to decide if it is platonic enough or carries the risk of arousing him too much your relationship is fundamentally flawed. Kisses are for sharing and enjoying for whatever they are and whatever they develop into - not for one partner to be policing to control the "correct" level of intimacy.
To give a bit of background, in my marriage, unlike your description, my wife didn't want to keep away from me, we were very affectionate, we even had sex about once a week. The issue was that outside of the occasions she wanted sex, intimacy was forbidden. Any kiss that lingered too much was physically pushed away, hands would be lifted/ pushed off. A sleepy wandering hand that went to cup a boob for example while cuddling would get a huff and a tut and a full body roll away. The next night though, if she wanted sex I was expected to respond appropriately. In the end, I would just pretend to be asleep when I knew she was after an orgasm. A relationship without sex is perfectly fine but without intimacy isn't healthy to my mind. One where one partner attributes expectations to their partners behaviours that may or may not be there and where that partner reacts to assumed motives is definitely abusive.
Mr"This is me totally you put it into words way better than me this is the reason I’m on here I just want abit of loving so t matter if it leads to sex or not I just want to be held by a woman but it’s deemed wrong because I am married | |||
" To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much
1NorthernDelight, I agree. I don't think the OP is saying she would deny her partner any intimacy. I think she longs to be intimate but doesn't feel the desire to have it lead to sex as an expectation or outcome of it every time, which is perhaps her experience of it.
I am probably not responding to this in the best way, it has triggered a massive emotional reaction in me, a night of bad dreams, crying my eyes out getting ready for work this morning, suicidal thoughts trying to creep back in and this is 5 years on - (no need to worry, it's reading now, I've just pulled the van over to get these thoughts down)
Totally agree, there is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that doesn't contain sex (though I believe this needs to be made very clear from the outset and needs to be mutual and consistent, ie, not a case of I can expect it when I am horny but don't you dare come near me any other time)
What upset me was the OP's second post and the wording 'expectation that every kiss will turn into sex'. This again is very likely me reading my own situation into her words but to me, a relationship where you are second guessing your partners intentions every time they show intimacy is deeply unhealthy. If, when you're kissing your partner, you have a part of your brain that's assessing the kiss to decide if it is platonic enough or carries the risk of arousing him too much your relationship is fundamentally flawed. Kisses are for sharing and enjoying for whatever they are and whatever they develop into - not for one partner to be policing to control the "correct" level of intimacy.
To give a bit of background, in my marriage, unlike your description, my wife didn't want to keep away from me, we were very affectionate, we even had sex about once a week. The issue was that outside of the occasions she wanted sex, intimacy was forbidden. Any kiss that lingered too much was physically pushed away, hands would be lifted/ pushed off. A sleepy wandering hand that went to cup a boob for example while cuddling would get a huff and a tut and a full body roll away. The next night though, if she wanted sex I was expected to respond appropriately. In the end, I would just pretend to be asleep when I knew she was after an orgasm. A relationship without sex is perfectly fine but without intimacy isn't healthy to my mind. One where one partner attributes expectations to their partners behaviours that may or may not be there and where that partner reacts to assumed motives is definitely abusive.
Mr
This is me totally you put it into words way better than me this is the reason I’m on here I just want abit of loving so t matter if it leads to sex or not I just want to be held by a woman but it’s deemed wrong because I am married "But without being a dick... You could leave your marriage? I have zero issues with folk who are married and seeking intimacy elsewhere... But I do think my statement has been taken several times out of context unfortunately 
As a woman.. I was in a very unloving, zero sex, unwelcoming relationship. My behaviour towards my male partner was rebuffed, I was offering intimacy/sex/affection on a daily basis, and rejected. Basically told to 'bugger off'... Shamefully. This as awful as it is for men (and apparently v common). Is so much less vocalised for women perhaps? Women rarely get to state, 'no, my partner rejected sex' again', nor he told me to go to bed because, 'he was too tired/had a headache/couldn't be bothered', every single time Because 'men always want sex'.. Of course they don't! But to always hear that they don't from their partner is pretty demoralising too... | |||
" To be fair I think OP is just suggesting she'd like the option of finding a partner/situation that doesn't always have to lead to sex? And no, that doesn't mean buying a dog? Lots of folk want actual relationships where sex isn't included. I was just wading in with with my own personal experience... And I do own a dog, but that's not sexual. Although my daughter says I baby him too much
1NorthernDelight, I agree. I don't think the OP is saying she would deny her partner any intimacy. I think she longs to be intimate but doesn't feel the desire to have it lead to sex as an expectation or outcome of it every time, which is perhaps her experience of it.
I am probably not responding to this in the best way, it has triggered a massive emotional reaction in me, a night of bad dreams, crying my eyes out getting ready for work this morning, suicidal thoughts trying to creep back in and this is 5 years on - (no need to worry, it's reading now, I've just pulled the van over to get these thoughts down)
Totally agree, there is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that doesn't contain sex (though I believe this needs to be made very clear from the outset and needs to be mutual and consistent, ie, not a case of I can expect it when I am horny but don't you dare come near me any other time)
What upset me was the OP's second post and the wording 'expectation that every kiss will turn into sex'. This again is very likely me reading my own situation into her words but to me, a relationship where you are second guessing your partners intentions every time they show intimacy is deeply unhealthy. If, when you're kissing your partner, you have a part of your brain that's assessing the kiss to decide if it is platonic enough or carries the risk of arousing him too much your relationship is fundamentally flawed. Kisses are for sharing and enjoying for whatever they are and whatever they develop into - not for one partner to be policing to control the "correct" level of intimacy.
To give a bit of background, in my marriage, unlike your description, my wife didn't want to keep away from me, we were very affectionate, we even had sex about once a week. The issue was that outside of the occasions she wanted sex, intimacy was forbidden. Any kiss that lingered too much was physically pushed away, hands would be lifted/ pushed off. A sleepy wandering hand that went to cup a boob for example while cuddling would get a huff and a tut and a full body roll away. The next night though, if she wanted sex I was expected to respond appropriately. In the end, I would just pretend to be asleep when I knew she was after an orgasm. A relationship without sex is perfectly fine but without intimacy isn't healthy to my mind. One where one partner attributes expectations to their partners behaviours that may or may not be there and where that partner reacts to assumed motives is definitely abusive.
Mr
This is me totally you put it into words way better than me this is the reason I’m on here I just want abit of loving so t matter if it leads to sex or not I just want to be held by a woman but it’s deemed wrong because I am married
But without being a dick... You could leave your marriage? I have zero issues with folk who are married and seeking intimacy elsewhere... But I do think my statement has been taken several times out of context unfortunately
As a woman.. I was in a very unloving, zero sex, unwelcoming relationship. My behaviour towards my male partner was rebuffed, I was offering intimacy/sex/affection on a daily basis, and rejected. Basically told to 'bugger off'... Shamefully. This as awful as it is for men (and apparently v common). Is so much less vocalised for women perhaps? Women rarely get to state, 'no, my partner rejected sex' again', nor he told me to go to bed because, 'he was too tired/had a headache/couldn't be bothered', every single time Because 'men always want sex'.. Of course they don't! But to always hear that they don't from their partner is pretty demoralising too... "I agree but after 25 years of marriage you don’t stop loving them even though you feel unwanted | |||
