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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Well I’ve previously posted about struggles of mental health and issues following sexual assault in past that has caused trauma and increased anxiety and stuff.
After 5-6 yrs of denial finally sought help this year after 10 months just had my first call to decide what need and support can get.
Seems ptsd is big impact I struggle lots which makes meets scary and worrying I do love fab and rely on it a lot for contact and chats due to isolation and lack of real world friends due to the assault I pushed everyone away.
So had first meeting and now just feel numb and shocked as thought having relive stuff with stranger is hard.
Hope others are good and safe and keep the mh ok
Sorry for my Rampling just lonely and stuff |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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No need to apologise. What you're doing now is similar to what you'll be doing there. Speaking about your worries and troubles is hard to start with but hopefully you'll feel comfortable with whomever it is your appointment is with. This may not be straight away but in time. You do have to really face your fears for it to really work and to keep faith in yourself and your chosen direction. But it'll pay off eventually, time is your friend and you don't have to rush anything. Good luck fella and have a good Christmas |
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By (user no longer on site)
over a year ago
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A lot of people don't appreciate or comprehend the long term effects sexual assault has on the survivor. I know people working in the area of therapy with survivors, and the results are dramatic. Embrace your treatment OP, and good things will come of it. I understand the results can be transformational. |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Thank you for them words. As said I tried hide but the cracks where too big to hide so needed help.
Hopefully get better and able to sleep again, play guitar which I’ve lost interest in and maybe get back to fun and life |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Thanks for the pvt msgs and kind words means a lot that have support.
I don’t have friends manly cos pushed away I try chat and more here but seems to fizzle.
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over a year ago
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Thank you for the help and chats people have given me. Not excited to have next conference call on 5th jan but Christmas first to enjoy.
Yippee finally my isolation ends after a negative swab so am freeeeeee haha typical go back to tier 3 Saturday but least get see family tomorrow.
Feeling very excited for time off and relax after crazy year.
Hope everyone has a great time and stays safe as can be |
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By (user no longer on site) OP
over a year ago
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Well another meeting later today and feel so anxious and nervous again omg since tried sleep last night finally slept at 4:30 and up at 8 I feel drained
Sorry to waffle but hate having to chat it makes me relive stuff but guess that’s why getting help so it doesn’t define me.
PTSD is a huge issue for many people for various reasons. Stay safe and keep mind and body ok |
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over a year ago
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Well been having mh sessions which is strange as at the moment feel like reliving stuff over and over and now have to write a story of the event in detail. I’ve been putting it off all week but know I have to do it ready start sessions breaking down the ptsd and move on.
It feels like a long road as it’s at least 16 weeks my work has been amazing and helpful giving me time for appointments but that makes me guilty.
Hopefully it helps and quiets my mind. I can’t even enjoy fab as I get chatting and then feel guilty as am tainted so people think I ghost em when all I need is space.
Yes people will say leave fab in case but at moment chatting here is only place outside work I speak to other humans lol
Sorry to waffle hope everyone good |
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