So here I am, 7 years into my time overseas and very much outstayed my time.
They say being an expat is a good life but that has become very questionable to say the least, see I found myself here through a job and was told the longest a majority of people survive in the job was 1-2 months yet here I still am albeit in a different job.
I came here single and enjoyed the first two years as exactly that, I mean, this is Asia after all and the nightlife and sex life is every single persons dream.
I eventually found someone and to be honest I'm not sure how we are still together, we kept meeting and falling out but meeting again and going to the next stage and before I knew it we were married with a child on the way.
We've really been through some testing times and yes I've had many thoughts to walk away but I simply can't, at least not at this stage.
So why is a married man with a child on a site like this?
Well, I'm here for my child, it's not like the UK where we can just call it a day and go our separate ways and have my son in close proximity, if that was the case then I would have done it already.
So, why am I lonely? Well, it's strange, I work from home and I'm the only one to provide the income, I don't mind this at all because it's my responsibility, however, the list of demands, some very far fetched are continuous and to be brutally honest i simply don't get anything back, don't get me wrong, I'm not looking for a blue peter badge or a trophy for that matter, it's just I'm not recognised by her apart from being a bank account and that's it.
I see one day I will return to the UK but let's also be honest, the country is in a mess.
So back to why I'm here, well, there is a hope inside of me that I can maybe find a connection, someone I can talk to, someone who is open minded to the point where it doesn't hold limits to what is discussed and even share the odd ''fun'' conversation, however that only comes with the connection.
Is it wrong that I have these needs? |
